Monday, March 31, 2003

hmm, today was quite a fun day....slacked at home and watched those lame tv shows....hahaz....no one going out nowadays....tomolo actually going to wenjie house but I don;'t think I;m going....don't want to risk making my mum mad,.....hahaz....anyway, forsee a long week ahead of me....nothing much to do except tutorials everyday. This is getting to be so lame. Just realise I don't have a hectic social life lately....actually, I didn't have one from the beginning. anyway, there are really some great shows in the evening.....I just love slacking in front of the television......anyway, haven;t heard from azhari and peiying for a loong time....wonder how they are doing now. hope I can go out on thursday as it;s jeremy birthday and we might be celebrating it for him...haizz...notice I said 'might'. Anyway, hope no on I know are feeling sick now as the SARs thingy is really getting serious.

well, if yesterday was boring....today was really 10 times of it. Anyway, went to pray to the ancestors AGAIN....went also for AJ ice. Yum! I shared one whole of it with my parents and my sister. As you can see, today was really dull. Anywayz, met my cousins and talked about the different cool models of handphones. i know i should be thankful that I have a handphone but you know, samsung A800....Cora's handphone is really nice. HMM, speaking about cora, she wanted to ask me out to but jeremy;'s birthday present but so sad.... i had to go out with my parents. the SARS thing is really getting worser than I thought.....more people have contracted the disease...guess if I go out nowadays, i'll be making my parents really angry. but anyway, I can't possibly stay home the whole month and do tutorials right? I hope they think the same way too. anywayz, got to go clean up my room tomorrow..... it is really one huge mess in there. imagine, only april and my desk is already flooded with papers of all sorts.

today was definitely boring.*Yawn*... anyway, I was quite busy today as the chinese 'Qing Ming festival' is just around the corner and hence, I guess all of us have to go to the temple to pray to our ancestors. I mean, this is a ritual for me that I have to go through every year....I don't really mind actually cause I get to see all my cousins. Anyway, went to my grandmother house with my parents and reallu slacked there. I mean, what does a person expect to do there except talk to relatives. It got kind of boring after a while as they were all talking about the SARS thing. I mean, I know how paranoid my mother can get. Sighzz....there goes my June holidays. Well, I didn't really did anything today.....except for a few questions of tutorials. I don't think I am ever going to be able complete my revision in time. Oh yes, NJC called my house while I was out....wonder what they wanted to tell me. I hope it's nothing bad. Sometimes, I feel that my life right now couldn't possibly only be about tutorials and other mundane things. I hope my life gets better soon!

heyz, i'm back to update my blog again. wellz, woke up rather late today and sat down to do tutorials and revision...hahaz...surprised by myself too. Anyway, really have a lot to do this week and I went out to meet rosni to pass her aj's lecture notes and tutorials as she doesn't have some of them. I'm really glad that she really likes aj....and hope she has a great time there. HMM...actually, haven't talked to her for some time and kind of really miss her lame jokes and perspective on some things. Anyway, really glad to catch up with an old friend and guess what....we had a fun time shopping at popular(haha) and mini toons at north point. This is really getting ridiculous. Anywayz, she really bought a lot of stuff and I bought a new bag and a really cute notebookm that has 2 dogs in front. Hahaz....maybe it will get me in the mood for school. rosni was really nice and gave me her econs ten year series....now I don;'t have to purchase it..... I've juz received a picture of all my gd frens in 18/03 from danielle...think i'll print it and put it in a frame and leave it on my table. Also, i have a piece of good news. azhari recently called me to tell me how he is getting used to nyjc now and he;s liking it there. I;m really glad for him and I hope peiying will like it there too. Long time never talk to alan liaoz....wonder how he is doing...anyway, all the best to him too.

Well, today was supposed to be the day I know my classmates in NJC....but too bad....ANTICLIMAX.....there will be a 10 day holiday due to the SARS virus or sumthing....Wellz, I've decided to make full use of this week to go through the lecture notes NJ gave me....I suppose I better get used to the life there soon whether I like it or not. anywayz, I went throught the chemistry lecture notes today on electronic configuration.....didn't understand a word.....haiZ....need serious help soon. But the other topics were relatively easier to understand. Anywayz, went out with jeremy, irene and weilun to watch the show 'Just Married'....not a bad show but a typical chick flick....Had quite a good time laughing about the SARS virus. Well, in the cinema...these 4 immature ppl sitting behind us were throwing popcorn and ice down.....( there were only 8 ppl in the cinema)...obviously, we were the ones being thrown at and weilun raised his voice and talked about them loudly after the show was over. WEll, I didn;'t expect him to do that....hahaz....see him in a new perspective now....but hmm....it was lucky we didn't get scolded at. Anyway, hoping for a better day tomorrow as I;'m meeting rosni at 3pm for 'breakfast' at yishun....hahaz....she actually wakes up at 2pm. Anyway, want to thank cora as she told be not to be so depressed and I really appreciated that.

Depression....sadness.....loneliness....emptiness.....I dun think I'll ever get used to NJ....I've tried to be optimistic but it doesn;'t work. Went for chem lecture today....then slacked around with hilda a bit.....which was really unexpected....then pon chem make-up to go back to AJ. Luckily, Leonard was with me so I guess I'm considered quite lucky to have him with me at NJC....or else I may really collapse. Anyway.....hilda was really nice today cheering me up and accompanying me during break time.....I realli didn;'t expect it.....Hahaz...met regina at NJ .....shocked and awed. I guess if anyone ask me....NEVER be a second intaker....it really sucks....dunno whether it is me alone who has a problem or the whole s'pore thinks so too. I guess I still feel the sense of belonging in AJ and I really miss my friends there...oh yes, the sar thingy is passing around and we dun have school till 6/4/03...haah...dunno torejoice or to cry.....may be going to watch a movie wif cora they all tomolo....hope so..guess I'm spending the next one week catching up with lectures and what so ever......by the way, all of us in 18/03 are seperated but hope to stay together spiritually...what a word to use.

I'm now really tired and sleepy....guess what...orientation at NJC 2003 is finally over. Okay, I appreciated the effort they put in to make us fit into the school....but frankly speaking, orientation still sucks. But today was slightly better and I bought all my uniform and stuff. anywayz, I've found out one good thing about NJ already, that is...the lectures are really good. I mean, I really enjoyed a physics lecture for the first time in my life and the food here is not bad either. Since I'm staying put for the next 2 yrs...I guess I'll have to make the best of it. Anyway, orientation was all about water games and I got to know my OG better. Bad news is, I;ll be stuck with them until thurs. The posting of classes will only come out on Thurs....Haiz....I think I'm beginning to like NJC a bit better. I have friends here now...jasmine, raina....christine etc. Classic names huh? but today, when I heard the song-If we hold on together....I really, really fely really sad. I mean....I really miss AJC....I miss the people there....I miss my class 18/03. I dun hear cora suaning me anymore, Jeremy talking about what's he's eating...I dun see blackie going to the toilet......dun see weiliun's 'xin min lian'.....I really hope to meet them soon.....and I wish that those taking the same combi will end up in the same class. Deep down inside, though I know we might drift apart after 3 mths later....I still wish that a miracle may happen....But now.....ajc 18/03 rocks!

Today was really tiring....first day at NJC.....so sianz....the moment I stepped into the school....a feeling of deja vu surrounded me...Anywayz, luckily I haf Serene, Leonard etc...from ajc to accompany me. Maybe I didn't make an effort or maybe I was too sianz...Orientation relly sucked..Hahaz...slacked around form dunno how long....den I pon the rest of it and went to orchard to meet my ex jc friends. I really had more fun with them....but if you ask me now, I think I'll still choose NJC in the end. The school is not bad...the people are quite friendly lor.....just a bit cliquish with one another...can't really help it also. Anywayz, met axhari, alan, peiying for dinner and talked about the past three months and realized I was quite lucky. I mean, at least I dun have to worry about not making it to a jc that I liked. Anyway, hope azhari can succeed in his appeal and maybe he will be glad to be in AJC. All I can say now is....though NJC seems fun.....but I think AJC 18/03 really rocks......I think I'll feel this way for the nxt 2 yrs.

Today was a day with my family....I woke up at 10.30 and sat in front of the television and watched this quite nice show called Interpol
on channel U.....then took a hot shower and went out with my parents and sisters for ' dian xin' at this Crystal Jade restaurant......no special occasion though but the food that was really good. Hope to go back soon but it is quite expensive. Anyway, I actually was going to go out with Irene to orchard but we were too sianz....hahaz....thinking about how lame school will be tomorrow...Wellz... abit looking forward but yet afraid at the same time. i guesss it's just a matter of time before I get used to the idea of a new school. Anywayz, talked to alan yesterday and heard that he was going to retake his english. Really glad that he's trying a 2nd time and all the best to him even though the exam is still a long way ahead. Think I'm going to slack for one last day....the repeat show ' A kindred spirit' is starting soon and I better go get ready with potato chips and coke to slack in front of the television......

I'm back from a long workout at the gym and the track. Surprised? I guess after 3 mths of 'intensive' PE at AJC....I've become fitter and well, I sort of like running more......anyway, after eating good food for the whole week, it's time to work it off! Today started by me rushing down to AJC to help azhari with his appeal form......I'm really disappointed that he and peiying couldn't make it to AJ. Hope his appeal will be approved and all the best to him if he manages to come to AJC. Then, I met Irene, blackie, jeremy, weilun....we went to the yio chu kang gym and ran around the track for 4 times. Quite tiring but I do feel the satisfaction in doing all that exercise. Well, I went with them to eat AJ ice and discussed about what we were going to do in the next few days. Oh, before that, we went back to AJ as it was on our way....and I saw the OG list being put up....hahaz...jeremy and cora ended up in the same group and Irene was complaining about how it was so unfair that no one was in the same group as her. As for wenjie, she has decided not to appeal to NJC and she is in the same group as weixin....Well....I hope that she will like AJ as much as I do and I wish her loads of fun during orientation even though I feel that the idea of a 2nd orientation really sucks.

Yoz...I'm here to update my blog again. Anywayz, today was a rather boring day until the later part. Woke up at 10.30....slacked around a bit and did a bit of revision of chemistry.....hahaz and I managed to complete my tutorial. anywayz, met peiying and rosni for dinner and had a great time eating at burger king and catching up on the old times.....then went annex to look for a gift for one of my jc friends. Though it may seem quite boring, I had a great time and I felt really happy just talking and joking around with them. Hope to do it more often! Anyway, I met francis on the way back home and was rather surprised. We chatted in the bus about school and about how he was getting on. I'm glad to meet him as it seemed so long since I last saw him. All the best to him in his future school and also hope my good friends, peiying and azhari, will make it to AJC. But for now.....goodnight!

I'm feeling a little sad and down today......guess whatz....I called a friend early in the morning and started talking crap. Anywayz, sometimes, I wonder if things will always stay the same and don;t change....i mean, there's this phrase saying ' friendship never ends '....but i'm, really wondering about this. I mean, I see all my jc friends so enthused about their gathering with their sec school friendz.... but there's this 'so-called' good friend of mine, he seems to be distancing from us. I mean, sometimes it gets irritating to know that a person would rather gather with his friends a few times a week and when u ask him out for dinner once in like 3 mths, he makes excuses! In a way, it makes me feel sad and to a certain extent, disappointed. I mean, it's one thing to have a friendship fade away but it is another thing to just lose a friend. Sometimes, I don't know what I want in life.....and sometimes, when I need someone to talk to....no one seems to be there...

Haizz...today was rather okay.....woke up early and went over the notes for AP & GP.....at least, i did sumthing. I really wonder how AP & GP will be of use in my future.....interesting it may be but when u really want to study it....u don't see a point in it. Anywayz...went to Cora house for a 'cooking session' and mahjong session.....I had a fun time and well, I forgot to off the stove so while we were all eating the dinner we prepared, the gas was leaking! Needless to say, I almost killed my whole claz....the key word is almost! Anyway....I just realised I'm leading a realli boring life.....everyday either slack or do homework......den sleep....slack...wake up.......so sian lor! I don't really know what my life is about nowadays, but I'm stuck at home for the next 2 days. What a social life I have....staying at home while people are going out and having fun. Enough of self pity already....think I'll go back to sleep and hope for a better day. By the way, I juz remembered a meaningful phrase from a song I heard today....." I know you'll be going to a faraway place....but I love you too much to make you stay, so baby fly away " Isn't it cool!

Well, I had quite a good day.....Nothing much happened and I went to the library with Irene and we went over our physics notes and tutorial together....Imagine....I'm telling you, Ideal Gas really sucks.....Finally, I can understand about 80% of it now. Well, met azhari on the way home and he seemed radiant telling me how he was going to get into AJ and about buying his track shoes....I really hope he make it to AJ.....Anyway, nothing much today but looking forward for a chance to go out with peiying, alan and azhari.....After a short 1 hr nap, I feel a bit sick now and I think I might be coming down with a fever....I hope not.

Today, I had a class outing with my jc class....amazing, almost the whole class showed up. We had lots of fun rollerblading (first time 4 me), eating stir fry (Yum!) and chatting etc.... Well, cora almost lost her handphone and she was really frantic looking for it but managed to find it with the help of a nice cleaner....thank god for that. Well, I received 2 letters from weilun and cora. Surprise! Weilun gave me a 'farewell' gift which was quite unexpected.....When I opened it and read the both letters, I was really touched by their sincerity.....A simple gift and a few simple words made me really think of how much I would miss them after I leave.....cora always suaning me.....weilun's bad pronounciation......Jeremy's appetite....etc. I mean, at a certain point of time today, I remembered wenjie, alan, peiying, azhari.....and really felt that though we are not always together.....our friendship doesn;t end. I really hope my short but fufilling friendship with weilun, cora, irene, jeremy, blackie etc... will be like that. I don;t suppose I'm afraid of what might happen in my new school...but I will really miss the times where i laughed at cora, the times we discussed what to eat during break.....simple things that are unforgettable. i know the 3 mths at AJC has really touched my life and left me with great friends.....I know the road in life is never smooth....I dun know what will happen tomorrow.....but I think it's the uncertainty that makes life worth living!
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well, today I visited my grandparents.....had a great lunch with about 10 different dishes as it was a rather big family gathering. After that, I went to my aunt's bubble tea shop to help out.....wow! It was really fun helping her and I got to learn how to use the bubble tea machine as well as the cash register. now after working for about 8 hr, My legs are really aching but overall, it was a fun and enriching experience. I'm definitely going back there to help out in the hols......oh, I also got the opportunity to taste different flavours of bubble tea and had a great time eating the leftover snacks at her shop. all in all, It had been a great day and I had lots of fun helping out in her shop! Also, I'm looking forward to tomorrow as I'll be having a claz gathering with my jc friends....hope it'll be fun!

today started off in a good way.....I wanted to go with esther to expo to look at some track shoes that was on sale.....Guess what happened? I forgot to off the bath heater and hence, my neighbours called the police when they saw the smoke coming out of my house. Yup, till now, I still find the situation incredible! But I'm glad that everything is okay now.....
Time really flies....3 mths have almost passed. Anyway, Irene gave me a 'farewell' letter and after reading it, I really felt a little sad. In a way, the 3 mths friendship I had with some of the people in my claz 18/03 has certainly left me with memorable memories. In the beginning, I thought that nothing much would come out of it but I was really wrong. Although I can say that we never really went through hard times together....but our friendship bond is really beyond one's imagination. But for now....I don't think I'll lose contact with them as a group of us have decided to meet at the gym every saturday to prepare for the napfa test......I hope we do!

Today is another day for slacking......I got off school at about 1.45p.m and went to orchard. Amazing! going to orchard on a wednesday....Anyway, I'm now really tired and not feeling the urge to complete my tutorials. It was tiring today, going all over the place with jeremy, weilun, cora to look for a special present but in a way, it was a fun kind of tiring. Haha! I've gain more knowlege today by just walking in orchard rd and looking at all the interesting things.....Well, I REALLY dun understand the purpose of chem lecture today....why the heck do we have to know the history of electrons, protons etc....should have listen to cora and pon the lecture...

Wellz...today i had P.E....I was dreading it for the first part of the day but miraculously, it turned out to be okay.....Well, except for the fact that I realized that I have a co-ordination problem. Sighz! Anywayz, I'm beginning to realize that my life is one BIG routine everyday.....I feel as if I'm missing out on something. I dun know what it is but I can be sure....I'm going to try to find the bright spark...
Well, I went to a friend;s online blog today and found out how shallow I've become......Sadz! I realised that I've been so wrapped up in jc life that I almost forgot all the great frenz I have! So py if u happen to read this entry, just want to tell you that you've made a big impact on my life too!!!!!

The physics lecturer was crapping in the auditorium today...I conld not make head or tail of what he was trying to say. Well, I really did tried my best to listen but still don't understand!!! Yup, so I went home thinking I could read up on it but the words on the lecture notes seem to be arabian to me.....I think I must find a person who is good at this to help me!

I'm now in the com lab setting up an online diary.....wellz, the days are quite relaxing nowadays and all of us are looking forward to the hols that will be coming soon. Looking at my claz 18/03 now, i realise how much i'll definitely miss them and all my good frens from anderson secondary school......but i realise something today, and that is, no matter what, i'll never forget all the fun times in AJ in my claz...