Monday, June 30, 2003

4 hrs before the gp paper.......sigh.....not feeling as stressed as yesterday now le......think i should be quite prepared for the coming common tests.....and finally understand a little of econs...... but think i will still fail...... 4 more days to go.

why do we have to have common tests just right after the holidays.....like that are we supposed to spend all the holidays studying.....sigh......the nxt yr is going to be like that too lor.....why?.......really sickening lor....all those nice tv shows also no time to see.....and tomolo there's gp paper lor.....i am so freaked out now......i hope i know something about one of the topics tomolo lor....haiz.....i am so dead for econs also.....i wanted to stay up late to study last nite....but guess my plan failed......i was just too tired....and my bed was just too tempting.....haiz...that's the problem of staying at home....the bed and the tv seems to be distracting me all the time......when i woke up today....realised life holds no meaning for me....haiz....now i know why i sound so sian everyday.....it is because i am sian lor.......haiz........nothing to really look forward to mah........except to thurs....when common tests will all be over.

haiz....i am slacking for a moment now le.....really break my promise on not updating any more....haiz....i suppose i deserve a little break after that study on physics....gravitational field....sucks lor....as if i dun have enough on my mind le....still must study this dumb topic.....haiz.....i am still counting down....6 more days to go....hahaz...debbie's blog is really nice lor....got all those quiz.....muz put them here also lar....hahaz....juz finish reading esther;s blog....she was saying that she wants her nxt bf to be the last....hahaz.....so funny that she will say that.... a little unexpected lar......i tink it's still possible though.....haiz......life is really unpredictable one lor......but then muz make the best of it.....really glad that me still in contact with wenjie....doesn't seems to me that we are in dif jc lor....i suppose that;'s a gd sign....for now......work n study hard!

which smilie are you?

4:39 PM

Friday, June 27, 2003

haiz.....sigh.....2 more days till the common tests start.....i'm so damn tired now le lor.....really sick of mugging le lar....din really enjoy this hols as much as i wanted to.....well. today was quite an interesting day as i went to study with jeremy, cora, weiji......sigh.....it;s really funny how close i am to them than those superficial ppl (some) at njc......i know i shld not complain lar....hahaz....well, i shall not now........sigh......6 more days to go......so sick of everything le lar....but today was quite fun lar....had fun but studied at the same time.....tink i can finish studyong but 3d trigo sucks like siao lor.....hahaz.....well, tink i wun be updating my bog for this whole week as i really want to make full use of the next 2 days le lar.......looking forward to going out with esther they all nxt thurs and 1803 nxt friday lar.....tink me shall end off here le lar.......i shall not complain anymore and get back to hit the books le lar.......jia you!

10:27 PM

Wednesday, June 25, 2003

What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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7:00 PM

today is quite a slack day lar....decided me needed a break lar.......so did not really study very hard today....nowadays, my life revolves around all books lor.....stupid newton lor....invent so many laws.....den now i muz remember....really creating problems for me lor....haahz.....den went out with irene for a while to amk central for lunch....sigh....was actually going to pass her something but in the end dun have lar......sianz....so, went out for a few hours.....now juz finish the topic on work energy and power........sian....but at least did a little studying lar....hahaz......den i was busy watching television just now lor........can see how slck i was today....but i have a good news....should be able to complete my studies by sat lar....hopefully le lar....i swear i am going to celebrate like siao after the common tests lar.......maybe go catch up with old friends eg. peiying and wenjie...but i guess peiying have to start preparing for common tests le lar...hers is in the end of july....jia you.....i've been thinking a bit when i was slacking today....finally came to a conclusion le....i know what to do about certain things le....but shall put that aside until the common tests are over......9 more days to go......i will make it.

6:57 PM

Tuesday, June 24, 2003

Just yesterday night...realised i have a ao common test.....sucks lar.....dun even know if anyone is studying for that....den that chinese handbook me also dun have....preparing to fail le....why the hell did i choose to take ao?.....why wasn't i satisfied with my lousy b3......nvm.....i shall not complain anymore here le lar....hahaz.....haiz....finally finished the price theory chapter for econs le lor.....feel really relieved now le.....i'm starting to eat more and more junk food nowadays.....think there's sunmthing wrong with me le lor.....anyway, think i better get back to hit the books le lar.......10 more days to go.

1:05 PM

Monday, June 23, 2003

common tests....project work....so many more things to worry about.....getting sickening.......i hate studying le lar....physics and econs really cannot make it........sad......but guess me should be staying at home to mug all day le lar....hahaz....gd luck to me and to those that are mugging for common tests.....11 days more to go den it'll all be over.....sighz.....missing you now...but do u feel the same?

3:05 PM

Sunday, June 22, 2003

today was quite slack lar...hahaz....woke up quite late but at least, studied physics for 3 hrs lar....sigh.....i tink physics is better than econs lar.......sigh....den about late afternoon....went to grandfather's house lar.....visit him....long time no go le lar....a little guilty....last time used to stay with him....den now like so long no see him....i really felt a little sad coz now he is sick lor....den always tok abt dying le.....i also dunno what to say to him le lar. today was really a dull day lar...nothing special happened....went to walk walk at that tiong bahru plaza for a while....sadz......i woke up today feeling sad again....i've been thinking about what a stupid person i have been all along.......din treasure what i had....instead kept being so complicated.....think too much....regret now.

10:52 PM

Saturday, June 21, 2003

The way home was serious and memorable in a way..........we talked lar.....and i told him how i felt about certain things.....really sorry to make him listen to me as he seemed damn tired........sorry. I asked him to reconsider his answer on certain other things......but inside me, i felt really sad lar. It has been a long time since i experience this kind of sadness.....it feels like doing something you don't want to do but yet, you still have to do it......and now, i really feel sad lor. I guess this is the reason why i woke up so damn early......heck le lar.....and i can't help but think again. I really hope my predictions don;t come true lar....but den, i tink i will.....you are not selfish, it's just that i want to see you happy......n the only way to make you happy.....is to be selfish to myself....cliche right? Hahaz....can;t believe me saying this......but den.....i always like the way you smile, i like to see the way you laugh, i like to see the way you get nervous, i like the way when you are serious.........but do you feel the same way to, or am i just living in your illusion?

9:36 AM

wow....today is the earliest i woke up for the past few days.....sigh....dunno y but i could not get to sleep lor....sad but true lar. Yesterday was a really damn fun day....irene, weiji, jeremy, blackie and danielle with me went to sentosa's beach to play....hahaz/....bought loads of stuff there to eat.....den played with these two kids and it wasm damn funny to see them trying to attack jeremy lar....hahaz....tink the children like him a lot lar....haahz....den weiji dunno how to swim....he was a great target to splash water at.....and when he splashed back....it was damn painful lor. The funniest part was when blackie wore his goggles on the beach lor....and it was damn hilarious........i got nothing to say about him le....yup, den irene and weilun went tanning.....den even i applied layers of sunblock....i still got sunburnt.....sadz...Oh ya, after that, went to cora's house for steamboat lar....den blackie went missing for a while....until we discovered he actually went to the toilet....lame. then shopping was really very fun coz weiji kept giving us a time limit lar....den crap all the way. Prepared the food at cora's house and her brother joined us too lar.....quite fun but the dishes left to wash after that was really a lot lor.....den that blackie....never even help and then the rest of them kept suaning me lor....as they always do :(....well, den irene they all stayed behind for a mahjong session as i had to go home cuz my mum was not too happy about me reaching home late lar....den toke that stupid 86....but went down at the next stop to wait for weiji as he also taking 86 lar.

9:36 AM

Thursday, June 19, 2003

slacker....that was what i was for the whole day....sighz....woke up like 10 in the morning.....den only started work like 11 lor.....haahz...but den had a great breakfast today lar......actually, staying at home is not that bad lar......studying is okay lar except that i hate econs lor....sighz......i wonder if i will even make it to promos lor.....common tests are really coming le lar.....den me still like so slack like that......i dun tink me going to finish my revision lor....especially for ECONs lor......hate it lar....but dun feel lk dropping it at the end of this yr leh......sianz.....ok....den spent the whole day mugging lar.......sad, this is the holidays le lar...i've long accepted this fact le lor....cannot make it one lar.......my project group also cannot make it le lor.....never even haf proper meeting this week....i mus ask them out on sat le lar.......or maybe sunday coz there's a class chalet tml....which me not going lar....sadz.......tomolo shall be a day filled wif fun......no need to mug le lar.....1803 going sentosa.....den go cora's house for steamboat......it's really difficult to organise a claz outing lor...now den i realise lor....sigh...almost quarrelled with irene today lor.....luckily nothing happen....jeremy is a great organiser lar....at least, i think so.

10:15 PM

Wednesday, June 18, 2003

today wake up damn early lot....den went for co lar....quite slack lar but find the seniors there really nice....brought my instrument nice....hahaz.....din let weiji see what;'s inside...he surely will laugh at me one lor....hahaz....now he will never know what instrument i use.....hahaz...anyway, went to popular to buy the worked solutions for physics and chem lor....sianz.....starting to really get serious nowadays on studying le lar......den went to eat KFC lor....sianz....but den today was quite fun lar....hahaz.....it was really different from sunday lar....in a way, felt more relaxed lar....hahaz......laughed quite a lot today lor......i tink the bus driver was ready to chased me down the bus le lor....den today that benny din get into ex-co....felt dissappointed for him lar...hahz....but den realised that he;'s quite a nice person to be frens with....anyway, weibin they all will know their posts today lar....so hope for all the best for all of them.....better return to maths le lar.....nitez

10:30 PM

Tuesday, June 17, 2003

oh no, my bog which i entered yesterday has been deleted lar....sian diao lar......hahaz....today was damn sian lar....i stayed at home the whole day lor....can u believe it?....jeremy they all will know the results if they are in ex co or not....so wish all of them all the best lar:).......anyway, weibin called me to go for a clique chalet on friday lar....den me deciding if i wanna go or not.........sianz....sounds quite fun lar but den on friday, we may be going to cora's house for steamboat....guess i wun get to fly my new kite le lar.......hahaz....never mind....maybe me try to locate a park near her house lor.....sianz.....today i really studied lor....like sat down seriously and did some ten year series question....pretty sure i will fail econs one lor......essays are so damn hard to write lor....sianz...after what happened on sunday, me feel a little weird all the time....the scene keeps replaying in my mind and i get a really weird feeling that has never been there before lor......was just wondering if u feel the same way but i guess even if u do, u wun tell me lor....coz that;s what you always do....shall end the crap here and go back to study le lar........

8:45 PM

Sunday, June 15, 2003

watched finding nemo today....really a great cartoon lor.....everyone who wants to watch a movie shld go see it.....i give it like 4 stars lor....real heartwarming lar. Watched the movie at that causeway point lor....i really sick of that place....s'pore is just too small for me lor.....muz find more places to go.....den went westmall to eat that chicken rice.....quite nice lar...haahz....but west mall quite sianz....prefer to go west coast lar.....hahaz.....sianz.....den after eating....finally got an answer lar......a bit unexpected......den felt a bit luan again lar....hahaz.....dunno what;s going on also lar....but today was fun lar....really lor.....in a kinda special way......haven felt lk that for some time le lar....but a bit unsure of what's going to happen....shall take things as they come my way lar....but i know this is a big step for that person lar......commendable courage....hahaz......sian...that cartoon was really nice lor....awesome graphics lar....hahaz....long time since i watched a cartoon le....oh ya, went around causeway points and looked at so many soft toys....some really cute lar....haahz.....last time me got collect....now no more le lar......maybe shls start collecting now le....think me goin to slp le...damn tired......really a happy day today.

10:59 PM

Saturday, June 14, 2003

today was quite an allright day lar....went for a family outing....wif my grandmother and parents and cousins....and sister....sianz....went to chinatown for high tea.....quite fun lar.....bought a kite...maybe can go fly one day....hahaz....sian......den eat so much lor.....later will become fat lor....sianz....but the food was damn good lor....got cake, dessert, roti prata....etc....too many to describe....sianz....hahaz...nothing much happened today lar......called ricky lar to catch up on old times....den discovered sumthing so shocking lor....hahaz......not going to say here but den i really shocked le lar....hahaz....think i better go sleep le lar...a little tired....nite

11:11 PM

Friday, June 13, 2003

today i woke up damn early....for that CIP lor.....den went to bukit batok....west coast is damn fun....can fly kit, ride bicycle, play the playground....i'm going to go back again......also, me think will go west mall....like damn fun lor....sianz....weiji will laugh if he sees what i write now....tink i told him this about 10 times le lar....hahaz....actually, we we went there to bring about 28 kids to play lor....took the bus they booked......den played catching, dog and bone.....flying fix....i dun think the children ever get tired one lor.....they like so hyper.....den i got so sunburnt after the whole day....now i;'m red like a lobster lor,......look damn horrible now....haiz.....anyway, i tink all of us had loads of fun today.....discovered that kangyu has the f factor.....fatherly...hahaz.....den melissa and i really had fun lor.......hahaz.....met this pri 2 kid kaiting,.......she has 2 handphone lor....cant believe it. After that, went for CO lor....quite fun lar but a little sian....coz still learning lor....hopefully can hurry up and learn lor. After that, went with dinner with him at burger king......den crap like siao....and saw ajc ppl....they were like staring at us....hhaaz....like we were display items like that.....hahaz....damn funny lor. On the walk home.....talked a lot about secondary school trips...damn funny lor. I really think that there might be a brighter side,......was kind of hoping....but nvm.....haahz.....if u are reading this blog now......just want to say that just do what you think it's right.....dun need to bother about me one.......i've had lots of fun together.....

10:34 PM

Thursday, June 12, 2003

sianz.....3 hours of maths lect....but den dun understood a word that he was saying lor....sian diao.....den that bunch of tchs guys were sitting near us lor....that minghong really damn irritating....serve him right for being locked out of the lecture theatre....finally talked to that zhen jie......a little funny....coz he has read my blog and i read his.....he damn crappy lor. I hearby conclude that tchs people are losers and retards.....i know weiwei will be killing me soon. anyway, i met jelvin today to ask him about the interact thing....ya....and he asked me to accompany him to the orchard popular.....den later....me say me going to woodlands....den he say he dun mind going to woodlands....haiya, in the end we went orchard popular....shan't go into the long story lar......quite fun lar....biut hope wei wei wasn;t offended lar....hahaz......den later me went to woodlands library to borrow a few books.....den went to eat kfc alone lor.....den realised didn;t bring keys with me....den called him to accompany me a while lar....coa really one person very sian....damn paiseh to disturb him lar. Ya, so met him at northpoint....of all places lor......so sick of that place lar.....den went walking all around yishun.....i strongly feel that history is repeating itself lor....it's lk the same thing happening again lar. I have a bad feeling about this lor.....i dun think it will work out.......i dunno why lor.....coz i have thought about it for a long time.....and den i realise maybe i;m just staging a one man production.....maybe it;'s just my own thinking all the while..........maybe i shouldn't have asked you at all......so i won;t be feeling this way now........sighz.

11:03 PM

Wednesday, June 11, 2003

Today was a rather alright day....auntie just went through an operation.....hope she will recover soon....hahaz.....mother agreed for a raise in my allowance......and decided i've gotto control the way i use my handphone le lar....or else next month i will really jump when i see my bill lar. So, wish me all the best in controlling my bill......toke a bus to amk with melissa today.......talked and joked about a lot.....i really miss her lar....hope we will still stay in contact. She's a really nice gal.....oh ya, eunice talked to me about the mentorship programme.....like quite fun but i dunno if i can commit or not....hmm....maybe i should ask jelvin for his opinion and see if he's going.....hope so then at least i'll know sumbody there lar. Haiz.....decided to go talk to him tomorrow lar....i'm so damn tired now but i dunno it's becoz of what lar.....sianz......i';m still waiting for an answer lar. At first....i really wanted to know where we were going.....but now.....it;s kind of dragging on lor.......i just feel very tired lar......and i dunno what to do........the feeling of anticipation is wearing away......and the reality of disappointment is beginning to sink in..........it's not supposed to be like that............we are not supposed to end up like that. Whatever it means, i have given up on looking on the bright side and now.....i'm just hoping that you will do something soon..............gd nitez

11:28 PM

Tuesday, June 10, 2003

haiz....tomolo gathering dunno on or off onez....so luan now. Hahaz....today went for co with mingyong n weibin.....seems auite fun lar...mayber will go join them tomolo too.....sianz. Hahaz....i've been thinking today.....maybe i worry too much about some things....decided to sit back and relax and just wait to see what happens......hope for all the best though. Received my phone bill today.....really atrocious and got scolded.....guess i better learn to control myself now.....i'm hoping to finish all my tutorials andn tie up all loose ends by the end of this week....hopefully, me can start studying next week....n the word is 'hopefully'. Hahaz....anyway, life is boring nowadays.....have make up lessons all e way.....den also no go out.....hahaz.....dun have e mood also.....jus realised that waiting for sumthing to happen is a bad feeling.....i dunno why i think so......but i want to know the final answer but yet i'm afraid of it. I'm scared of the consequences......sumtimes it is really difficult to be that optimistic.....i dun put my hopes too high, or i know i'll be more disappointed...as what i'm feeling now.........really lost.

11:04 PM

Monday, June 09, 2003

Baby won't you tell me why
There is sadness in your eyes
I don't won't to say goodbye ... to you
Love is one big illusion
I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost ... right now
Now you want me to forget
Every little thing you say
But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away - I know it

You were never satisfied
No matter how hard I try
Now you want to say goodbye ... to me
Love is one big illusion
I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away - I know it

(Yes I know)

Stand here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you (so much for you)
There ain't so much for me (so much for me)
If you leave (now)

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away - I know it
That's why you go away - I know it

10:51 PM

Saturday, June 07, 2003

haiz....just returned from a farewell dinner for ms koh, my maths c teacher...she leaving le lar. She brought her wedding videos and photos to let us see....den she was really pretty....and we were all so envious lar....me included too lar. Hahaz...den first time claz outing....but realli quite fun lar...hahaz. It was quite fun lar......we were eating pizza and slacking and talking lar....haahz...den take picture....realli had fun lar. Anyway, din get into ex-co....dissppointed but still, not that sad until wanna go n jump off lar....hahaz...we went out today....went to watch movie which was damn lame n funny.....hahaz....den eat popcorn.....den go walk walk around.....for a long time lar....den kept talking lar....very fun lor. It's a great way to destress lar...but things are complicated now lar....i think so too even though i dun show it. If only you will let me know what u are thinking about....maybe this will be easier lar. But i dunno what you are thinking, even if i want to know....i know u will never tell me.

11:34 PM

Thursday, June 05, 2003

today i went back to ajc....but before that.....realized i lost my econs workbook....sianz....den i ask ms tan for another copy....lucky she didn't scold me or chase me out of the class lor.......or else damn paiseh later. Anyway, spent the whole day copying econs lor....so tentatively, didn't do any homework.....sianz....i getting slcker liaoz lor.....dunno why also. Haiz.....Ms chong will be leaving after next week....realized she's a great gp teacher lor....always dun treasure things until they are gone lor. I wish her all the best in wherever she goes......so, took a class picture and gave her a card.....hopefully, she likes it lor. anyway as i was saying....me went back ajc lor....realli felt great to be back....but den the people were like staring at us lor....den felt a little alienated. Anyway, me, irene and weiji took the bus to bishan....irene was accompanying me to buy a farewell gift for ms koh and some interact stuff....elections is tomolo...damn scared. Anyway, weiji went back to cath high to meet his friends.........so me and irene walked wround to buy the gift....she's really a gd friens....but sumtimes people dun treat her the way she deserves to be treated. So, later....jelvin called me and told me they were behind us....den it was damn paiseh......den weiji friends asked us to go for dinner lor....so the both of us went lar. Anyway, after that, me, irene, weiji and jelvin went to NTUC to buy the stuff for tomorrow.....den so funny n hilarious at the supermarket lor.....haiz....wanna apologize to irene for 'fang her fong zheng' but i really had no choice....shan;t go into details here le lar. It was a great walk home..............thanx.

11:20 PM

Wednesday, June 04, 2003

sian....i am so tired everyday lor....i also dunno why....maybe i shall go sleep earlier today......yup, i think i will do that lor. Anyway, i have a very good news today......my project proposal approved le lor.....hahaz....den the teacher said it was interesting....hahaz. Den we were like quite enthu....but i can forsee worse problems in future....but don't want to think about them now currently. Anyway,m i just realised today that i'm a person that needs attention....i cannot be left alone one.....den my sense of pride is very strong one. I will not take the initiative one lor.....i told irene about everything.....den so sianz......haahz...i really think i oversensitive at times lor.....but den that's because i dun want history to repeat itself lor.....too depressing le lar. Anyway, it;s a bit difficult for me to pen my thoughts into this blog....i dunno how to express myself properly....sum more this blog is a public one....wonder anyone has ever gone through the phase of being happy yet sad......being surprised yet disappointed.....being exicited yet sianz.....what am i talking about. Anyway, today is the dumpling festival.....ate a dumpling just now lar.....and i went alone to amk central and stuffed myself with food.....coz i was a little depress recently....really helps to eat lor....too bad i was alone lar.....afraid friday will come now.....scared.

10:53 PM

Tuesday, June 03, 2003

guess what happens when u forget to bring ur glasses to school.....ya....that happened to me today lor.....sianz.....den stoned in lectures lor.....slept during it coz i think my eyes were too tired from squinting at the whiteboard. sianz.....hahaz...maybe this thurs going back to ajc....dun tell the rest of them first....me go back n suprise them lor. Anyway, i came home like about 6 lor.....den slept until 8.....den did homework until now lar....the good thing is, i dun need to sleep so early tonight.....hahaz...enough sleep to last me le lar.....anyway, wish wei wei all the best for her tomolo outing.....hahaz.....actually quite envious lar....hahaz......but she deserves a break lor. Anyway, i;m rather relieved now as i told weiji about how i felt lor.....hahaz.....glad that everything is ok now le lar....elections is on friday......damn scared lor....must pray le lar......hope things will work out fine lar......sianz.....anyway, guess my whole blog is filled with sian lor.....i have no idea why. Oh ya. yesterday i saw this couple at KFC deep in passion......like kissed for 5 min without moving....it was damn amazing lor....like the whole kfc was staring at them lor....den me, irene and esther were like staring lor.....it's rude to stare lar...but the both of them real openminded lor....sum more the girl is in sec school uniform lor....a bit throw the face of her school lor....i also dunno what to say. Heard that bruce almighty is a great show.....but den ask irene they all go see they also dun want....sianz....long time no see movie le lar....maybe looking forward to trip to the zoo with jeremy they all....hahaz.....should be quite fun lar....oh ya, 3 more days to the june hols....yay.

10:36 PM

Monday, June 02, 2003

sianz.....i stoned throughout the whole day today lor.....sianz....lessons sucks....especially on the last week of school....we were supposed to have our holidays le lor....now still studying in school.....really sucks lor. I hate going to school lor now....so sianz....dragging myself into classes....i hate everything now. I have been thinking about a lot of things today........spent quite a lot of time.......and i have come to a conclusion....me gonna slack this week.....want to go out more often....hahaz.....den work hard in the hols.....must set goals for myself lar.......sianz.....ya lar....academics are still important to me....but den sometimes....somethings cannot be helped one lor....just like what is happening now. ....hahaz....so messed up....k...me gonna pay more attention in tomorrow class le....cannot continue like this anymore. Hahaz.....listening to SHE song now lar....haahz....very nice lar. Anyway, it's funny how people can be so fake at times to each other....i really see it in jc now....and it's damn scary lor.....thanx debbie for reading this blog lar.......little people read this blog lar....hahaz....met 1803 for tea.....at KFC again lar......

10:57 PM

Sunday, June 01, 2003

haiya, me have loads of things to write about today.......coz yesterday damn tired to update lar. I went out to celebrate mingyan and weiliun birthday....dunno why like all of them always have mood swing one.....sometimes can get a little irritationg lor.....long time to get a chance to meet up....den like that....sianz at first. But den....met weiji and went to buy the cake lar.....anywayz, we went to eat and den spotted by esther and xingni......a bit paiseh lor. Anyway, we went to marina bay for steamboat.....sometimes i wonder why ppl can not be simpler....think simpler.....instead of wanting more and more. ok, i shall cut down on the serious stuff.....haahz....we really had fun there lor....so wei lin .....after so long....haahz....ate a lot lor......think gaining weight le lar. anyway, den it was damn late lor.....so i decided to walk hom from yio chu kang coz my mother was like scolding le lar....haahz.....thought it quite serious yesterday but seems like nothing today....paiseh to irene for not walking home with her lar. So den.....weiji said something to me which i have been wanting to hear....hahaz....me still in gd mood. So anyway, it was like quite late....so he walked me home lar.....anyway...hope he din get scolded by his mother...later me guilty. Hahaz....den when i reached home, my mum called cora to ask her....i damn paiseh lar.....hope cora was not angry lar....hahaz....think it is quite funny now alr. I was piaing my homework today...at least, i tried to..but me slept a lot of times today due to the medicine i ate lar.....a little sick now. ...anyway, i really feel a little confused now...about where should i go....what should i do. i dunno what is happening now....and whether i want anything to happen....it's just too confusing to me.......i dun know what is happening now....fell very insecure....hahaz.....like going mad le. Sometimes, the people around me tend to be too practical and too complicated.....i hate it when things get complicated lor.....and i hate the way i feel now.....

10:51 PM