Friday, December 31, 2004

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happy happy new yr...in a matter of 1 min....hahaz, shld start writing down my resolutions here ya...oh ya, brother and irene came over to my hse to bake cookies today...it was quite a success...yummy....yup, and we waited for 1 hr plus for weiji to eat dinner at my hse?....kaoz, that guy so late lor...but real glad to eat dinner with them on this yr new yr's eve lar....den i busied myself with watching vcds jus now with my maid???....hahaz, damn funny...okok, here's my new yr resolutions

-highlight my hair into a decent colour, and hope it is not too terrible
-earn more money during this 7 mths to put into my bank
-buy my new handphone....(E800 which is pink and limited and very expensive)
-spend more time with my family
-make sure my tuition students realli get great grades
-get good grades for my 'A' levels
-research on the course i wanna take in university
-have fun if i make it to university
-stay happy

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i'm super super tired....today work was ok lar...at least i managed to hit my sales target...and guess what, 2 ppl sacked again....haiz...from 19 now bcum like 8 liaoz lor...and all of us thinking of quitting...but i haf to 'ren' or else my pay gone le,....hahaz, its super stress lar plus if u dun meet ur sales target hor, that stupid person will diao u lar...and make u stay back and call until u hit ur target....and some more stayback no money de....and cannot eat and use hp during office hrs lor...kaoz...like going to jail liddat lar...but i shan't complain...but realli lor, u come my workplace, confirm feel lk quitting liao....haiz....and at nite today i went to tutor my student...haiz...pri 3 naths super hard lor, some more how do u teach a person how to read the clock?....oh my, i teach until i vomit blood liaoz lar...but i got bring present for my student every lesson to motivate her...hahaz, plus me considering being a teacher nxt time le...haha

anyway, the recent tsunami thing has realli shocked me lar, reminded me to treasure what i have, my family and frens lar...to ppl reading this blog who are my frens rite...i hope no one is affected by this tsunami le lar....kk...and i'm realli thankful for everything that i have now lar.....even though i feel totally drained nowadays but realli contented le lar...hahaz, anyone got job offer muz tell me, me wanna job hop wor...hahaz...oh ya, its time of the yr to make new yr resolutions again le...i'll get back to this tomorrow lar....

recently i have been stoning and also blog surfing lar...haiz...why do some ppl make you feel that you mean alot to them at one time, but yet their actions reflect that they dun give a damn?....hahaz, i muz be too sensitive le lar but i guess sometimes, that's how life goes lar...shall nt think abt this to make myself luan le lar....

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after 2 days of work, i can tell you i prefer studying....hahaz, with wearing those formal clothes and that stupid pair of heels which realli retards my movement lar...but anyway, the past few days have been training all the way, and currently, i'm doing something related to banking services lar...hahaz, den today, from 19 ppl bcame 12 ppl lor...kaoz, they had this stupid one on one evaluation thing, some ppl chose to leave and some got sacked...oh my, i was so so nervous lor....but that interviewer was realli a damn fierce person, well, dunno she acting or wad...i got chased out of the room 3 times, plus slammed on e phone one time....i was so sian diao lor...and damn scared too lar...but anyway, i love the ppl there lar...heng arh, the sole survivors includes shiwen cum wendy, jasmine, ying rui,oh ya, that kelvin who is super jie mei and funny la....plus alot of cool ppl lar, most of us jc students lar...but we have this feeling we will quit when we get our first pay lor....hahaz, coz that environment not very nice, but those ppl are nice lar...haiz, tmr is officially when we go to the call floor to start work...me super nervous sia...oh ya, i met this weiji fren ying rui there too...i tink she;s realli quite nice lar, plus we go to work and go home together....so that's great, btw, going to eat aj ice tmr to celebrate us getting in the first round lar....hahaz, 4 of us girls....haiz, so tired now...some more juz now went to tutor this pri 3 kid....hahaz....sianz....

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meery xmas ppl...hahaz, it was a fun xmas lar...we went to min kok house to sleep over...and we ate spaghetti, chips, log cake, orange juice....and loads of snacks lar...hahaz, i had a real fun time lar...esp the part where they were trying to think of a english name for me lor....damn funny, think weixin the dog nearly laugh until he die lar...but well, i onli slept like erm 3.5 hrs yesterday....hahaz....but i realli miss all of them guys lor.....like 4/1 ppl still can meet up and haf fun?....wow hor....plus i'm so looking forward to the sentosa trip lar....oh ya,. i ended my dbs job le lar....i realli had fun doing that job but damn tiring...hmm, now no more free candy to give ppl le....so sad hor, btw, min kok's mum made a cheescake that realli rocks lar....hahaz, damn nice and yummy though me din realli eat alot lar...and thanx to all of u ppl for e xmas cards- xiuli, jiawen, hilda, weixin, wenjie, azhari, yuchun, shuangz,alan and more lar....realli glad to receive so many cards wor...hahaz, me acting popular now liaoz.....

oh ya, i cant believe i went town today to shop lor...so many ppl lar, but i managed to get 2 tops and a skirt lar...hahaz, shld get one more pants before i'm happy le...some more got it at a reali cheap price...now i'm saving up for my pair of levi's jeans....hahaz, anyone wanna sponser me mah?...oh, i saw this skirt that was freaking expensive at like $215 but was so so super chio lor...haiz, i guess me realli should not think about that skirt le...hahaz...until i get my pay?.....

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hey hey....me at my fren house now...hahaz, my cm realli cmi le, so comtemplating whether to buy a new one or to repair....haiz, n money to buy one lar...oh, i found a job ppl.....$8 per hr at dunno where, super damn far but guess what, i met shiwen today lar and guess what, we both got the job lar...and yay, i know someone there...but its sort of an admin cum telemarketer job lar,....so maybe got quota and i'll be damn damn stress....oh ya, i have to have an english name so ppl, pls put down any suggestions on my tagboard...and i dun want names like mimi, lulu or suzy ya?...or i will be angry de wor.

tmr going to be working and also xmas eve...so sad hor?....haiz, ppl go out with friends me working lar....hahaz, but nvm, i will be rich de....hmm, hope all of u guys having fun working or slacking lar...btw, went to watch ocean's twelve on monday, hahaz...it was damn hilarious, but i realli want to watch the new one phantom of the opera...got anyone want watch can ask me kk....i'm so bored...haiz...oh, i'm so excited coz bro jeremy and blackie coming out this fri le...and we having steamboat this sunday, and bro muz treat me to a nice dinner coz me go and help him lor....hahaz, he better thank me lor.....haiz, gtg le lar....cya guys until my com is ok....sigh

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yo, i'm at shuang han house now...hahaz....using the computer coz my com SPOIL le....so sian lor...now cant look for my job le....had been working at town for e pasr 2 days....so sian, wear that ridiculous santa hat wor....hahaz....so paiseh lor, but no choice, no money is liddat de...anything also can....hahaz, being a little antisocial here using the net but i made a few gd frens lar....hhaaz...tiring but i enjoyed myself though...oh well, gotta go exchange my xmas present le lar....:)

=the fact is that, you dun even care=

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yoz...i'm now at dog house...hahaz, actualli is weixin hse lar....in his room using the com while the rest are busy playin mahjong outside....i won like 30 cents juz now and arh....i could have won so much lor....shall not mention it le...coz behaving lk a gambling addict lar...hmm, they were damn funny lar, playing games and filling themselves with water....hmm, after that goin j8 to eat pasta?....hahaz, yummy wor, but i tink today is realli fun...oh ya, my sandals strap broke....so basically i had to hobble all e way to the mrt control station and waited for jael to bring slippers for me...hahaz, as i going to her workplace to interview (i need money desperately) hahaz, but that girl, realli nice lar, brought for me lar and go wif me to interview...hmm, hope i do get the job lar....asap....hahaz, or i'm so so bored at home lor....everyday go out also cmi leh, coz the girls working tmr le....i dun have ppl to go out wif anymore!!!! hahaz, cora is leaving this wed le....i will kinda miss her but wow, i shld be going to the airport lar...with her gift...hahaz, juz bought it juz now but its quite small but hope she likes it lar...hahaz...back to join e 4/1 gang le....

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to a certain you, if you are still reading my blog. I didn;t mean to hurt you, i know you must hate me now lar, but realli, i'm not the person you think i am.....haiz, i know how you feel lar, coz if it was me, i will feel the same way too. sorry is a word that cannot be used to stop what you are feeling lar...but still, i'm guilty too.

=the worse thing is, you don;t even care=

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yoz....today went to expo to watch concert with serene, her niece, her sis and boyfriend and wei wei lar...hahaz, thanx so much for her for giving us free tix, well this is the first time i'm going to a concert...hahaz, got 5566, cyndi wang xing ling, 183 club and many more taiwan bands...hahaz, everyone was like rather high besides me and wei wei....hahaz, but i thought it was fun lar, esp to see ppl behaving weirdly, i know, i'm weird too but...hahaz, they sang some xmas songs at e end....and i realli loved that part coz i tink x-mas is a fun season lar....hahaz, i love x-mas to tell e truth coz its so festive and i'm waiting for my present so ppl?...faster go buy for me kk....hahazm btw, i did smth quite drastic to my hair...hahaz, tink it looks not bad but ppl, nxt time if u see le den will know...hahaz, off to my bed now le.

1:55 AM

Friday, December 10, 2004

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some time since i updated le...hahaz, i sort of din realli have e mood le...but let's start with the day i went out wif my first 3 mths frens, hahaz, on monday, we went to the zoo together, yep, all of us except weilun who was sick...anywaym it was quite fun lar but we saw few animals onli and spent more time in shelters as it was a wet wet day....den later went to marina to eat steamboat....hahaz, we were literally dragged onto this minivan and had to eat the shop that we didn't intended to....ugh...but it was ok lar, besides the point where i was literally pissed of...hahaz, sounds so trivial now...but the best part of the day, was when we went bowling....hahaz, damn fun larm, besides the point that i was super bad at it...but heng, bro was the last lar...hahaz, i almost scared that i was paiseh lar, den that weiji lar, so pro at it keep acting not pro...he obviously won lor....sigh....but i did something drastic that day that i will not write here, but i really want to thank all the ppl who have been there for me lar, dun worry, i will stay happy ya?....hahaz, perhaps i finally realised that somethings no matter how much u tried, it's u who ends up getting hurt and sad....but oh well, life's like that. What i feel about the whole matter is too complicated to be written down into words....

anyway, talking now about prom le...wow, our claz guys all looked nice...hahaz, and obviously the girls look damn chio lar...hahaz...hope that includes me, the most happening part abt prom was getting ready for it...hahaz, as i looked around my table, i will realli miss them lar, my claz ppl and friends...i cant believe 2 yrs juz flew by like that lar...and i had fun takin loads and loads of pictures too...hahaz...happy le, but too bad, the dance floor was dominated by j1s....sian, dunno what they trying to do...hello? there will be still prom nxt yr?....hahaz,, but had fun walking with weiz, shuangz and baoz....all the way, we didn;'t went clubbing at coco latte in e end...but we me perverted guys who tried to chat us up and even lean on us....kaoz...go and die lar, like they can;t get a girl liddat.....somemore we dressed quite decently too lor....

hmm, i received a letter, and this letter realli touched me lar...in ways i cannot desccribe lar, and i did some things when i was semi concious, but in a way, i was aware of what i was doing, i felt something too, but i dun know what it is....i wish i did though, hahaz, but i felt realli guilty....haiz....how can i treat someone that way when i dun even know what i felt?....hmm....perhaps i juz wanted to live that moment and realli go and do what i realli wanted lar, but i'm now not expecting anything lar, maybe it's juz me who has lost faith in people lar....it's my problem, i dun want to get hurt again.

i'm just confused. someone pls tell me what to do.

8:19 PM

Sunday, December 05, 2004

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i'm back from e claz chalet...want to thank jiaxuan for also taking effort to plan this whole thing, though not full attendance, but not bad lar, at least most of the guys came...hahaz, but gals onli got me and jael stay lor....hahaz, but i had fun at e bbq though, but realli eat too much food liaoz...and prom is so so near lor...die le, i'm going to look fat!!! Oh ya, shuangz, me, serene and weiz went to play monopoly in the room in e afternoon....hahaz....damn funny, plus me and weiwei realli gone bankrupt and owe the bank so much money.....hahaz....den e bbq was quite a success, guess abt more than half of e claz came lar, but at night me and jael had a real good talk and guess what, i tink she;s realli nice. Oh, I forgot to mention that baozie as lianne dyed their hair and this baozie lar, wear a super short skirt cum but both of them looked rather nice.

Oh ya, I'm currently job hunting a waitressing jobs....anyone got any good lobangs mah?....haha, i need money desperately....i need to find a job soon!!!

8:58 PM