Wednesday, September 27, 2006

it's been a long day. i went to the dental centre at the polyclinic. sigh, and i waited for 3 long hours:( but certainly saw alot of happenings at the clinic. i think s'pore being an advanced country, still has a long way to go in terms of its health care. perhaps that's why the polyclinic is filled with elderly people, cause they can afford to wait so long. sigh, and there'are people who actually don't have money to pay for their bills, even it being a mere 20 bucks. and to think i felt really guilty there.....sigh, and the dentist was quite pro and sweet too....haha, i really dread going to the dentist though, the sound of the drill makes me cringe. and its confirmed, i really got to do the root canal thingy, and i'm going alexandra hospital to do the xray and all those, sigh, going to be 800 bucks poorer, and gosh, my wisdom tooth is coming out too.

life's sian nowadays with tooth ache and worrying about the root canal thing....sigh, i bet it will hurt loads. just like today, i had 2 injections as i had to go through some process of removing something from my nerve on my gums......sigh, really regret not visiting the dentist regularly:(

was in a mixture of emotions at the dental centre, its quite sad to actually go to the dentist alone sia, cos i was super worried for that 3 hrs. but i guess i should learn to be independent, because in the world, no one cares more about myself than i do.

its finally the mid sem break, but i've got tons of work to do and tests after this break. gosh, but i love sleeping til late in the morning....whee....., jus for 1 week though. and s13 girls, will u all be free to meet up nxt wk? like nxt fri?....i miss u all loads sia......uni simply cuts off any social activities though, sigh. oh, got to celebrate esther's and jiawen's bday....haha:)

hmm, and to those concerned, don't worry, i'm back to being the happy me once more:)....lalala, we mus think positive to stay positive rite? been indulging in chocs lately, makes me happy. hee, and the show goong is showing on channel u soon, its damn niceeee!!! haha, cos i watched it already, but i wun mind watching it again:)

i wan the hols to come real real soon, so that i can watch vcds and indulge in my korean fairytale again...haha

i seem to finally realise why there are some people indulge in self-harm by inflicting pain on themselves. it's to make themselves feel better as the physical pain will override the emotional pain and depression they are undergoing.

don't worry, i won't be stupid enough to hurt myself. it's a difficult phase i'm going through and i can say that no one exactly understand how i feel. even i don't. i just wish this pain will go away.

finally, org chem test is over. and it was pretty all right, just that the whole world was busy discussing, haha, and i realise that whatever intellectual i had, its all gone. sigh, gone are those days when i actualli like exams as i wld feel that my effort had paid off. and now what happens? i cringe at the thought of a mere test, and i get so freaked out before a test. uni life has certainly changed me and i'm no longer the confident self i used to be. to tell the truth, i hate what i'm studying now, and i don't forsee myself as a chem engineer. sigh:(

and it just gets worse. 1 lab report to hand up, 1 ess test on mon, 4 tutorials yet undone, 1 assignment to be handed up.....sigh, and where am i going to find time to do all this rubbish. i am sincerely working so hard this sem but i think it will take more than working hard for me to catch up on my grades. sigh, all we want is jus a 2nd upper honours. and i'm barely there. what's the point of working so hard when in the end, a mouse click to ur exam results jus shows u that you are still not there yet?

i hate to whine about all this stuff, and it's boring to write about it too. sigh:( i bot a new top from fox yesterday to cheer myself up.....15 bucks and it's really nice. addicted to retail therapy liaoz:)

damn, it's the weekend again and there's tons of tutorials to be done. gosh, and we are only in week 3....10 more weeks of this madness and i'm going to be a zombie soon:( boo. here's a very big sorry to bro jeremy whom i promised to let him come and bake a cake....i like totally forgot about it and it didn't helped matters that my hp went flat that morning i had to help victor out staying back at the bazaar. sigh, i'm really really sorry.

2 tests next week and i really want to go shopping. haa, on another note, i bought escada's new perfume at 60 bucks for a 100ml bottle....heez, and i really love the smell. anyone who wants to buy perfume at a cheap price, do ask me cos i know a person who's selling it:) and it's perfectly original.....boo to sasa counters whom overcharge people.

sigh, and relationships are so strange. people sometimes change for the better or worse after getting into a relationship. and there's those who tends to neglect friends once they get attached. haix, i mean, a little zhong se qing you is okay but sometimes, certain things should take priority. i know that there are valid excuses sometimes but it's really hard being a friend of such a person.

anyway, here's to *cora and i hope that u are having fun in HK...hee hee, do enjoy urself and we'll meet up soon ya? hee, 6 mths is a pretty short time:)