Sunday, September 28, 2003

haiz.....slacking again away in front of the com......didn't do much expect stoned in front of the tv today.....sigh....is it me...or is anyone realizing that promos is in 2 weeks time.....haiz......keep sighing nowadays......i guess my favourite pasttime now is to stone in front of the tv or juz sleep......really changed alot.......can;t realli say i like jc life a lot....but it's not too bad....besides the fact about promos coming soon....well, to all that are busy mugging.....jia you.......we only have less than 1 month to go.

Dotz.....today was such a boring day as usual.....i guess me will never get to step out of the house this weekend le....actually, it's not that bad staying home.....got loads of food to eat.....got that tempting bed....can't believe i slept 3 times today liaoz.....haiz.....really got so many things to do lar.....so sian......all with regards to homework as usual.....hmm...tok to weilun juz now.....really sort of miss my first 3 months frens.....i guess first 3 months are usually the best lar....missed the times when all of us went to eat after school at kfc.....physics lect where we sat at the back of audi laming.....i guess if that claz was my claz for 2 yrs....i would be damn happy....not that i hate 03S13 but it's different i guess....we are more focused with our own commitments and stuffs lar....but then i guess at least it's better than a mugger claz.....at least some of them quite slack so we not so stressed.....2.5 weeks more to promos ending....i'm still counting.......time seems to drag on when we dun want it to....seems to fly when we are having fun......

More to Life

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
I'm wanting more.....

haiz....today is already thursday le....had such a nice sleep yesterday....as i dun need to worry about PW for the nxt 3 weeks....i can;t believe that time is passing so fast.....promos is in 2 weeks time......and ends 3 weeks later....hahaz....i have already tot of how to enjoy myseld le lor......abit extreme lar.....but i'm going to have so much fun....my desk is over crowded with TYS and files and tutorials......already given up on trying to complete all my homework.......seems endless....typical life of a jc student....sigh.......anyway, today maths lesson was damn fun with this relief teacher....all of us were crapping....jiaxuan is known as Lucy now....and glad that weibin regain normal le....u know....it juz doesn;t seem the same when he is acting normally, he has to be abnormal to be normal.....today leonard best fren bday.....tomolo ming yong's bday....happy bday to the both of them.....sigh....shall go back to mugging again....to all my frens....jia you kz

ultimate day le......today went to do PW from 9 am to 6 pm lor....actually, we only started until it was about 2 plus lar....hahaz....spent the morning slacking in jiaxuan's house.....den his dog bit me lor.....fine......i was so damn freaked out.....haiz......den my wrist got a bit pain now still....but i guess it will be fine....hahaz....but jiaxuan realli looked guilty lar....which i feel it is no one;'s fault.....okay....den that stupid minghong.....keep making barking noises in front of me......he is a retard, idiot, loser.....i dunno got how many more words to use le......haiz...i must have committed some sins to have him in my project group....he lame until i cannot take it....dunno whether to laugh or to cry......stupid idiot.....haiz....but tomolo poning chem prac to do PW lar.....wed muz hand in report 2nd draft le lar.....muz jia you coz we are only about half done.....haiz....den now haven even do any homework lor....die le....i dun need to sleep le.

a rainy saturday afternoon.....quite windy and cold.....a perfect day for staying home to mug....hahaz.....finally a day where i can really stay home to do some stuff.....haven touch any homework yet...and going to do PW tomolo....shit.....dun need to sleep tomorrow le.....but glad to say i did a bit of revision yesterday and juz now......listening to my radio now.....damn crappy DJ yakking away.....me not taking notice of whatever he said.....guess it's all crap anyway....this week has been kind of stressful....i mean, you can feel the stress and see everyone working hard....i guess even the most slack ppl in nj will still mug,.....incredible....and i din poned any lessons this week.....was a good gal and attended all my chinese and gp lessons......hmm....shall sustain this next week....i guess.....

fine.....now already so late le....me still nt in my bed yet....hmm.....shall stay up late today coz tml all michael tay's crap lessons.....hahaz....feel like poning school to slack....but i shall stick to my vow for the new term....that is to work hard and not pon any more lessons lar....haiz....2nd day of school only and i already have a stack of tutorials again.....haiz.....sickening sia.......life has no meaning nowadays.......the bright spark is gone le.....haiz....tomolo got pw.....i think i will die of heart attack or something.....den today drifted in and out of sleep during gp....cannot believe it....didn't hear anything she said.....guess it is all crap anyway.....i gotta get back to my homework le....cyaz

hmm...tomorrow shall be the start of a new term....haiz...time really changes a lot of things....i;m quite looking forward to school tomorrow.....hahaz....coz i am so bored always staying at home....not that i mind all the late mornings and sleeping time in between.....haiz......i guess it kinda makes me a little lazy lar....hahaz....yesterday was too tired so didn't blog...hmm...went for a voulunteer thingy...played with the kids there lar....it's scary how all of them are so energetic and hyper......makes me feel a little old le lar....haha....den chatted with wenjie on the phone till quite late.....you rock lar....hahaz...discussing whether it will be better to drop physics or econs....well, i guess i will not be dropping any if i can help it....unless mingyong they all drop lar....den maybe me will consider......all the breaks and free periods are really quite tempting.......shall go and sleep now...tml is goin to be a long day...

Never had a dream come true - S club 7

Everybodys got something they had to leave behind,
One regret from yesterday that seems to grow with time,
Theres no use lookin back or wondering,
How it could been now or might have been,
all this i know , but still i cant find ways to let u know,

I never had a dream come true,
Til the day that i found you,
Even though i pretend that i've moved on youll allways be my baby,
i never found the words to say,
Your the one i think about each day,
And i know no matter where life takes me to
a part of me will allways be with you

Somewhere in my memory ive lost a sense of time
And tomorrow could never be
cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
and theres no use lookin back or wonderin
How it should be now or might have been
all this i know but still i cant find ways to let u go

Youll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes u will say u will u know you will oh baby
Youll allways be the one i know ill never forget
Theres no use lookin back or wonderin
because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
i just cant say goodbye

They're both convinced
that a sudden passion joined them.
Such certainty is beautiful,
but uncertainty is more beautiful still.

Yup...saw the show turn left, turn right today at this ulu cinema at beach road...hahaz....no people there one lor....nxt time muz ask ppl to go there...more peaceful......that show realli was very heartwarming and nice....makes one think alot....about how coincidences happen and about fate....maybe that thing we all have been waiting for is onli juz around the corner......juz that we never noticed it....maybe happiness is juz in front of us....but we dun discovered it........maybe the person you like has always been standing near you.....but you are too busy looking for another to notice that person......life is full of stuff like that.....but believe it or not,........things always do wrok out in the end....hmm...sounds profound but to all the people out there.......if u are feeling sad.....dun hide your feelings....it may be better to let it all out.....you will feel better!

sigh.....today went back to nj for physics 'extra lesson'.....sigh...woke up so damn early....rather upset today coz of sumthing that happened....shan't mention it here lar.......yupz......but after that, cheered up le lar....want to thank mingyong for coming and consoling me lar....hahaz....xie xie.....anyway, went with shuanghan to woodlands library to do some research for PW....haiz....did quite a lot......and had lunch at delifrance....Yummy.....anyway, den after PW....met esther lar....den went to study together until quite late le........quite alot of stuff i did today lae....now it's almost 1 in the morning...juz finish a bit of maths lar.......hopefully me can wake up tomorrow....i am so damn tired now lar......sigh.....guess the next 1 month i will think about nothing but promos lar.....shall do what i want to do after everything.......

12:57 AM

Sunday, September 07, 2003

life sucks....really and i mean it......1 more month to go and i guess we all can take a break from everything that's happening......this holidays is not going to be fun at all....so much things and homework to do lor......and the worst thing is that i absolutely have no mood....i mean, i'm 17 le lor....supposed to be hanging out with friends but now, me staying at home for the whole weekend to complete tutorials and revision.....dunno how long more i can take with all the stress piling up....sigh....down with a bad and serious flu......can hardly breathe le....must be due to the past few late nights.......den have to go back to school on monday and tuesday...what the crap.....dunno for what stupid remedial and extra classes.....headache when i think about it.....i dunno if i'm overly stressed or what....but the stress of the promos is already piling up on me...and it gets worse.....well, muz stay happy though lar.....

2:03 PM

Thursday, September 04, 2003

sigh...extemely tired today....had a bad headache after doing that gp essay this morning at claz....lasted a whole day......sigh.....juz completed a five page econs essay...sigh...not feeling too well...can;t realli remember what happened today......juz seems to be one big blank......all that i remembered are the cutting remarks from people this few days.....rather pissed but didn;t really take it to heart.......all i can say that is i am not what i seem......just that i view other things differently from all of you.....ask yourselves whether what you said and commented to me applies to you as well?.......when you don;t do work...people comment that you are a slacker....when you study, they comment that you are a mugger....and all types of sacastic remarks comes out.......all the time....all the day........i can;t take it anymore

10:38 PM

Tuesday, September 02, 2003

I read a book and in it, there;s a quote that i like a lot " Love is not limited by time or space or age. It is the highest expression of human emotion. when it is given purely, without expectation of return, and accepted freely, without parameters and conditions, it is a gift unto itself. Each person must learn that nothing can break love's bond, not even in the face of death, and that is one treasure that makes life beautiful".

8:44 PM