GLAMOUR SHOTS

Wednesday, October 29, 2003

today went to school for nothing lor....hmm...there was the deepavali celebrations....too bad me didn't get to see the concert....sad arh.....anyway, we had this 'rangoli' competition....something like a mosiac thingy with loads of coloured paper....at first....our painting looked hideous lor....like dunno one red dot in the whole piece of paper....but our end product was quite chio lar....considering ours was a last minute piece of art....hahaz....but the process of doing it was hilarious lor......like we kept plucking leaves, flowers from all over NJ.....then that stupid brian ang kept shouting at us lor.....he;s a retard and a loser lor.......sigh....den today got OP lecture.....1 hr in the hall lor.....haiz......and i just slept through the whole thing lor....can't believe it......the teacher kept going on and on and on........they didn't seem to want to stop lar........and all of us were sitting there stoning......what a stupid day lor.

10:49 PM

You're Most Like The Season Winter ...

You're often depicted as the cold, distant season.
But you're incredibly intelligent, mature and
Independant. You have an air of power around
you - and that can sometimes scare people off.
You're complex, and get hurt easily - so you
rarely let people in if you can help it. You
can be somewhat of a loner, but just as easily
you could be the leader of many. You Tend to be
negative, and hard to relate to, but you give
off a relaxed image despite being insecure -
and secretly many people long to be like you,
not knowing how deep the Winter season really
is.

Well done... You're the most inspirational of
seasons :)

?? Which Season Are You ??
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10:42 PM

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.

What kind of kiss are you?
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11:01 PM

hmm...today went to buy handphone with cora and jeremy....den went for dinner lar...hahaz....the rice with the chicken was really nice lor....hahaz....long time no eat such great food le....den we slacked around and talked abt careers....can u believe it?....i spent a night talking about careers.....wonder where i will be in 10 yrs down the road....i hope will be diff from now...not so sian diao can le lor....or else me realli will be stoning all my life......den tomolo got dunno what depavali celebrations......sigh....why we lagging a few days one arh?.....dunno lar......to be truthful....my life is like getting nowhere now lor......i mean, duno what the hell i want out of life....just know that i am not happy.....poning lessons the whole day.....even if i went, what the tutor says dun even sink into my head....what's the point.....maybe shall just slacked until nxt monday...when the results are finally out....maybe it'll sink into everyone's head.....that should buck up soon....just that the soon is dunno how soon lar.....haiz......life sucks.....

shall start mugging for AO chinese soon...

10:48 PM

Monday, October 27, 2003

haiz....i was shocked on saturday lor....by a great piece of news....come to think of it.....now that i've learnt to accept what;s happening to the 2 of them......hahaz....anyway....giving all my blessings and all the gd luck to them....hmm...today is games day lar.......went to NJC to mark attendance....den went to town with baoz...mingyong...weibin....to slack....went to the library to check out the magazines and borrowed some great books......anyway....den went walking here and there.....hmm....and i went to meet esther after that......slacked and talked about a lot of stuff lar.....hahaz....quite a fun day spent doing nothing at all.....very shuang....though was a bit guilty about poning that stupid games day....haiz.....i'm dying of boredom soon.....either this week or next week....hmm...1 more week of freedom...until me receive my results lar....which i obviously am not looking forward to......sigh...normal lessons resumes tml.....going to cry and sian diao le

10:02 PM

Sunday, October 26, 2003

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Aggressive	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	38%
Orderly	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%
Disorderly	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Relaxed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
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10:18 AM

Never had a dream come true

Everybodys got something they had to leave behind,
One regret from yesterday, that just seems to grow with time,
Theres no use looking back or wondering,
How it could been now or might've been,
all this i know, but still i cant find ways to let u go,

chorus
I never had a dream come true,
Til the day that i found you,
Even though i pretend that i moved on youll allways be my baby,
i never found the words to say,
Your the one i think about each day,
And i know no matter where life takes me to
a part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory ive lost all sense of time
And tomorrow could never be
cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
theres no use lookin back or wonderin
How it should be now or might've been
all this i know but still i cant find ways to let u go

chorus
You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes u will, say u will, u know you will oh baby
Youll allways be the one i know ill never forget
Theres no use lookin back or wonderin
because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
i just cant say goodbye
No No No No

10:09 AM

Friday, October 24, 2003

haiz...had the best day today....woke up at 11 plus....went back to sleep at 2 plus......and slacked in front of the tv until now.....hahaz......nice day spent slacking....tml is open day le.....haiz.....muz be damn tiring tomolo one lar.....wanted to go swimming today one lor.....but didn't have the will to pull myself away from the comfortable bed.....hahaz......long time no sleep like that le lor.......the worse thing is that i slept so much.....dun tink can sleep tonite le lar....muz think of what to do later.....
somethings can be so near you....but yet so far away.....

10:26 PM

Thursday, October 23, 2003

finally, i slept......last night......there i was sitting on my book juz thinking.....and the next moment.....i woke up and it was the next morning le.........but 1 night of rest is not really enough....gotta catch up soon......with sleep i guess........really thank weibin for last night lar......cannot elaborate much here but he has been a great friend......haiz.....lucky tomolo no school.....so damn happy.....at least can dun go school for one day......lucky now promos over le.....really going to take a long break.....but still muz care abt PW and chinese and SATs....so many different things......

I feel confused about certain things......i really dunno where everything is heading now....some more now got alot of time to think of as promos are over le......really very sian diao......i wished i can stop time......den i'll stop it now and don't make myself think of anything else.....at least for a moment.....wonder if anyone has every felt the same way as i do.....even though ur mind tell you that it's wrong.....you juz continue to do what your heart tells you to do.......

I hate myself for feeling this way.......but i guess i'll always feel like that......in the past....in the present and in the future.......

8:57 PM

Wednesday, October 22, 2003

i am so damn tired now...after 2 days without sleep.........i think goin to sleep soon le......or else tomolo headache again.......feeling down and depressed........doesn't seem to get better.......emotionally, physically, mentally draining.......and crapping here now.....sigh......i always wonder, is there a definite answer to everything......is there a definite ending to somethings.......can human beings really change the ending of some things......but i guess i'll never know

i'm really sorry

11:43 PM

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

i didn't sleep for a whole night.....thoughts going through my head.....woke up so tired today.....and poned everything except PW oral presentation training......met wei wei and roamed around like 2 idiots.....but i really thank her for everyting she has done.....and all the help she gave me.....think i'm running a fever now still......

met alan for dinner as i was wandering about.....hahaz......guess he realized a lot of stuff today......but really thank him for giving a listening ear....though i thought he would be the last person........i also realised some things abt him today....that i never thought he had.....obviously, it's sumthing good lar......i guess i'm too tired to think straight now le......i'm so tired and sleepy......still got PW to settle

sadness and emptiness fills me.......i dunno what to do........i juz feel lk breaking down

10:29 PM

Monday, October 20, 2003

Here In my heart

Wherever you are tonight
I'll see you in my dreams
Wherever I go tomorrow
You'll be here next to me

And though we are a world apart
I know you'll never be that far
Oh, noo

Chorus:
Cause here in my heart
There's a picture of us
Together forever unfaded and unbroken
Wherever you are
Your love covers me
Forever more
You'll be here in my heart

Oh yeah
Whenever I miss, miss you so much
It's more than I can bear
Now, I wont cry
I'll just close my eyes
And know you'll be there

Your kiss and your touch
I'll never forget
Cause your as close
As my very next breath

Cause here in my heart
There's a picture of us (Oh yeah)
Together forever (forever) unfaded and unbroken (unbroken)
Wherever you are
Your love covers me (Your love covers me)
Forever more (Forever more)
You'll be here in my heart

Oh, oooh
And though we are a world apart
I know you'll never be that far

Chorus:
Cause here in my heart
There's a picture of us (Of us, yeah)
Together forever (forever, yeah yeah yeah)
Unfaded and unbroken (And unbroken)
Wherever you are
Your love covers me (Your love covers me)
Forever more (Forever more)
You'll be here in my heart

10:42 PM

Sunday, October 19, 2003

finally caught up with sleep this weekend le........so shuang.....went to aj open house on sat...quite fun as saw alot of sec school friends lar....want to thank wenjie for the talk she gave me lar.......thanx a million girl......i know u care abt me lar.....but i guess sum things i gotta do myself too......no one can help me one......den got hwee's bday party....quite fun lar.....ate a lot....din know weibin was such a great cook....hahaz......nice food lor....haiz....today went shopping with wei wei.....damn fun.....walked from orchard to plaza singapura.......den bought some cool stuff lar.......spending money once in a while is so shuang lor.....hahaz....den slacked at the mos burger and juz talked for 2 hrs plus......wow.....what a great way to spend a sunday afternoon lor......hmm....thanks for the advice given lar kk.....really appreciated it....i guess i'm sort of slipping into depression soon....but glad that promos is over soon le.......pw is back tml.....feel like dying for pw....sucks lor......MOE is so damn screwed up....
did you get my hint......the message i was trying to tell you......or don't you even care at all?.......feel like asking you.......but some words are beyond me.....you should know

11:01 PM

Friday, October 17, 2003

woke up damn early....coz of the stupid phone kept ringing....found out that it was my dad calling me up to wake me up for school......i mean......it's a holiday today lor.....haiz....now cannot go back to lala land le.....muz be all those late nights....now cannot sleep late le......sian diao....listening to this nice song now....haiz.....enjoying the peacefulness of the morning now......beginning to think back on a lot of things.....i guess the things i write in my blog are rather superficial lar.......dun really put my emotions into it......

i miss my sec 4 claz actually....miss those innocent times when we thought that there was a problem happening......but actually it was nothing....miss those late nights over the phone with wenjie discussing phy things.....miss all the jokes michelle crack.....hahaz.....and miss the way we used to suan each other........also, i miss peiying, azhari and alan too.....muz really ask them out after peiying's promos....den go ubin and play.......hahaz......

haiz...i can be considered quite lucky now le lar.....my jc claz is quite okay i guess......got people to lame and crap around me.....lucky got these few people....or else think i will sink into depression le lor....sooner or later one......hmm....i guess the days ahead for us is still a long way ahead......shall see what happens.......often, i wished that 1803 was my jc claz....coz i really had fun lor.....after school go eat together........den play bridge in the reading rooms.......jeremy's suaning....me, cora and weilun piaing down to canteen....irene coldness......blackie and weiji 'yaya'ness......but glad we all still in contact lar.

i've been thinking a lot since yesterday night......i've tried not to......what the hell is happening now i also dunno......sometimes u try really hard to tell a person how you really feel......coz somethings are just harder to spell out in words......but in the end u dun really know what the person is thinking.....what do you do?........it will be very fake of me to say that i dun expect anything in return........but actualli, i dun know what i want.....i really don't.......but i guess sometimes.....there's just no answer to somethong is it?.......i really hope history dun repeat itself......i cannot take another time i think.......maybe the person just need a bit of time....to think through everytime.....maybe that person has an answer....but he just dun want to say it out....coz that he knows that he will make someone very sad......

after looking at the people around me.....all the things some people went through....i really believe in the phrase that ' If you love somebody......set him/her free......if he comes back, it means you both are meant to be......if he/she goes away......den maybe you both aren't meant to be in the first place '......it's really true i guess....it's no point hanging to something just because u want to.......i've learn this the hard way.......can't believe i am thinking so much today.......wenjie muz be laughing lar.......seldom me so serious......actually, alot of things i did this year are beyond myself......and i realised that the more i dun want some things to happen. the more it will.......

7:39 AM

Thursday, October 16, 2003

promos is OVER.....hahaz....so happy today lor....sigh....was smiling through the paper today...no mood to do.....think also flunking the DRQ le lor....heck care le....coz promos is over.....hahahahahaz.......went to bowling at cathay....wash the gutter countless times le......den ate sakae buffet today.....crap like siao with mingyong, leo, baozie....weiz....taffy....weibin....damn fun coz i a bit of corny....then leonard damn lame today.....hahaz...nxt week will be fun, fun and still fun.....hahahaahahz.......me so happy....on top of heaven now le.....no more studying for the promos.....den went to meet someone after the whole thing......talked about a lot of things.......haiz....relieved now le.....at least did what i wanted to do for 1 month today le.....but still in a dilemna....a bit confused........shall slp le
all the best for your results

10:56 PM

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

hahaz....tomolo left a final paper of econs drq and mrq......yes....den i'll be free from mugging......haiz....had chinese and physics paper today....realli wanted to slap myself after physics.....so many careless mistake......can u believe it....i put density of water as 4200...obviously, all my calculations went wrong.....win liaoz.....die liaoz........hopefully they will take pity and give me some method marks....mcq was as usual...blank out and din't have time to complete it.....chinese suxs,.....getting ready to take for first 3 months le.....haiz....dun even know what the hell the compre was crapping about......but i;'m in a terrific mood.......i hope it stays this way......cant wait to go for the sushi buffet tomolo.....
10 more hrs till the end

11:46 PM

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

yup...i am here after a long day of mugging physics.....sigh.....cannot make it le.....i;'m mentally and emotionally drained after the econs essay and chem paper today....econs was all right, i guess.....hard to define if it's hard or easy.....chem was a killer.......mcq was rather okay if i had an hr to do....who the hell can complete 20 mcqs in 30 mins.....and my chem papaer...screwed it......didn;t do quite a few questions.......
2 more days till the end

10:53 PM

Monday, October 13, 2003

screwed maths...........
3 more days till the end

6:50 PM

Sunday, October 12, 2003

i'm rather tired now le....tomorrow official starting of promos.....i guess i wun have time to blog for the next week.......hopefully, promos will pass asap.....and den we can all enjoy ourselves.......ppl in 03S13......jiayou with mugging coz everything will be over soon.......ppl of ex ajc 1803........enjoy urselves if ur promos are over.....shall get back to mugging
4 more days till the end

8:51 PM

Saturday, October 11, 2003

You're the loving smile,the one that is entirely
devoted to others,especially that one
person.You really can't get them out of your
head,but then,you don't really want to.

What Kind of Smile are You?
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3:50 PM

Friday, October 10, 2003

sigh....tired.....stressed......headache.....sleepy......depression.....i'm experiencing all of this now lor.....so many things to do.....yet no time.....my agony will be over soon in less than a week.....haiz......some of my frens already finished promos le.....cannot believe it lor.....finished le.....the most impt event in j1 finished le.....and i hope it comes soon.....this whole week like one big blur......i cannot remember anything that happened.....all i know that i'm always sitting with baozie, mingyong and weiz........that's all i can remember....anyway, was a good gal and went to sch today.....for the first and last lesson.....cannot make it lor.......den stoned the whole day at the nj library.......went home rather early at 7 plus........mingyong seemed to be a little stressed......jia you lar......and den now begin to mug again......sigh
6 more days till the end.........

10:42 PM

How did i fall in love with you

Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like sister and brother
We understood we'd never be alone
Those days are gone, now I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
Never meant to feel this way
Don't wanna be alone tonight

Chorus
What can I do to make you mine?
Fallen so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice and I start to tremble
Brings back the child that I resemble
I cannot pretend that we can still be friends
Don't wanna be alone tonight

Chorus

Ohwwwwo, I wanna say this right,
and it has to be tonight
Just need you to know
I don't wanna live this lie
I don't wanna say goodbye
With you I wanna spend the rest of my life

Chorus

What can I do to make you mine?
Fallen so hard, so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew...
How did I fall in love with you?

9:07 PM

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

just reached home....taking a break from everything lar.....today had gp promos....haiz....the compre topics were relatively easier than that of last year.....but me scared later kena out of point.....hmm......then the compre was okay i guess....at least i could understand the whole thing for once.....but din't have time to finish my AQ.....hmm...i should say i completed it but i had a few more lines to write if i had a few more mins.....sigh.....den went mugging at woodlands library with baozie, ming yong and wei wei.........today i slacked a bit as was really tired and relieved after the whole gp paper....reality is sinking in.....promos is in 5 days time.....and i haven;t even finished my studying.....dun think i will ever complete studying.....so much to do yet so little time.....but thanx to the 3 gals who studied with me.......really appreciate all their laughter and help in everything........and all the fun we had even though we were studying.......the occasional naps in the library....the stack of tutorials which we din understand........the laughter we had at the librarian........until then......i shall continue mugging.

10:10 PM

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

it's early in the wee hours of a tuesday morning....or should i say, a late monday night....sigh.....definitely not a gd sign......had a headache AGAIN......ate some painkillers....but discovered i have several ulcers in my mouth....that always happen when i am stressed about exams.......and it realli irritates me......went to see a doctor before but he say that's how my body reacts to stress....what crap....but it always happens before a test.......i'm debating whether to sleep or not....hahaz....tomolo shall be my last official school day to nj.....decided to pon thursday and friday......to pia all my phy and chem.....cant seem to remember anything..........
I realised i can be so focused that i just turn my mind from anything and all i think about is promos and promos.......

12:50 AM

Friday, October 03, 2003

just reached home....stayed back at nj library to mug with weiwei, mingyong and baozie....den went to King Albert's Park to eat dinner at 9pm plus....it's kind of fun staying back school to mug lar.....at least, i had fun....cracking jokes in between studying and laughing like siao at mac donalds......what a friday night to spend.......i took the bus home with wei wei.....glad that she is doing well with everything.....like drifted apart last few weeks....but now feels the same anyway......i hope the weekend last longer....nxt week....me going for only selective lessons in school.....missing all lectures, PE, civics....only going to tutorials.......

11:13 PM

Thursday, October 02, 2003

today is thursday le......finally had the last econs lecture today.....hahaz....very happy lar....at least nxt week dun haf to attend lecture....my chinese teacher seems pissed with me.....coz i poned 2 hr chinese on tues.....but really cannot take 2 hrs....oh ya, me and best fren today busy mugging maths and phy in gp today....mrs gan was crapping away about globlalization and stuff....and jie li was crapping away as usual....making us rather irritated.....nvm......den mrs gan thought we were such goog pupils listening to her....but actually, i doing my maths homework....hahaz.....den chinese quite slack today lar......these few days busy studying to think of anything else....i also no more energy to bother about other things....right now....promos....promos....oh yes, gd luck to those in ajc who start their promos nxt week.....and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JIAWEN AND ESTHER.....paiseh didn't join u all for dinner......another time....i promise

8:57 PM