Sunday, November 30, 2003
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finally i have had enough slp liaoz....to last me for some time.....hmm....went clubbin with the usual ppl last fri.....went back to the same place, s.o.s.....hilda came to my hse to change lar.....hahaz.....she look quite good that day but after the whole thing.....she realli no energy le.....clubbin 2 nites in a row lor.....think she also c.m.i.....hahaz....that day was alright i guess....quite fun even though i was pretty stoned....den we went to shi ling's house....still have t shirt with me....want to thank her for lending us her place....to slp and bathe.....hahaz....we realli quite 'ma fan' lor....haaz....think her muz thank her alot lor......*thanx*.....hmm...then the next day went back to sch lor...dunno where all this energy come lor......den yesterday nite...was damn tired lor....hahaz....and slept until this morning lor....maybe going to practice abit of sat later ba.....hahaz...havings SATs this sat lor.....hahaz....sure need to retake one lor......sigh...this holidays getting closer to my sec 4 frens lar...hahaz.....
1:32 PM
Could be your eyes
Could be your smile
Could be the way you freed my mind
You precious touch caressed my soul
You gave me everything I need
And now I'm lost
Lost forever
Lost forever
And you said this is going nowhere, girl
And you said I turned my back on
You said I'm not the only one for you
Please give it one more try for the sake of our love
Let's give it one more chance coz I can't give you up
I can't live one more day without you in my arms
I could never find another, like you
Could be the lies
Could be my pride
Could be the days and nights so wild
Could be the times I wasn't there
And all the nights we didn't share
And now you're lost
Lost forever
Lost forever
And you said this is going nowhere,girl
And you said I turned my back on
You said I'm not the only one for you
Please give it one more try for the sake of our love
Let's give it one more chance coz I can't give you up
I can't live one more day without you in my arms
I could never find another, like you
I can't sleep, I can't live without you by my side
So cold(so cold)
So lost without you as my guide
You made me realise I'm nothing
Nothing without you
Please give it one more try for the sake of our love
Let's give it one more chance coz I can't give you up
I can't live one more day without you in my arms
I could never find another, like you
Friday, November 28, 2003
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my com seems to be breaking down soon...the speed is so damn slow lor...haiz....wondering now if it is illegal to gownload songs from e net......or is everyone else doin e same.....any reply?....i guess the past week had been kinda fun lar....hahaz...on wed, had a sort of family outing with my father and sis.....went to watch this corny loony tunes movie....and went swimming.....yup.....felt extremely great and energized after the whole thing......it has been a long time since i swim le......i guess it's still my fav sport....even though i dun like sports much lar......den went out with mich yesterday....saw xiuli and her friend....kind of shocked to see them......hmm...had quite a fun time yesterday and bought a nice yellow top at quite cheap......happy le......i'm debating if i want to stay home tonight....but i guess it wun make much of a difference lar....hahaz....so i tink i shall go out tonight....and we'll see how things go lar......
Thursday, November 27, 2003
Monday, November 24, 2003
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today reallim win liaoz....claz gathering bcum gathering between 4 ppl lor....haiz....but it was quite fun lar...went sakae sushi.....ate alot as me and jeremy kept ordering plate after plate lar....well's, it's a buffet wah.....think i will not eat jap food for like the nxt month le lor....just the thought makes me sick...*ugh*.....had too many plates ba.....irene grandfather juz passed away.....i din know what to say to make her less sad...but hope she takes it easy and take care....hmm...guesss she will be quite busy for the nxt few days ba........i am nodding off le....gotta go sleep.
10:51 PM
take the death quiz.
and go to mewing.net. laura = great.
11:31 AM
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nowadays....life sucks lar....dunno what everyone is doing with their lifes....guess all of us are slacking lar....today supposed to haf an 1803 gathering....haiz...but last min it was cancelled.....realli hard to organise this type of thing lor.....hard to gather eveyone and decide what to do lar....haiz......so how.....guess have to plan another time lar......anyway, today i dun have to work....so kinda free now....hahaz....dun realli feel like studying SATS yet......and i;'m only left with one and a half week......hmm....so sian....but later may be going out with irene they all......haiz.....alot of ppl have relationship problems nowadays.....it's kind of depressing but then realli, one can do so little to help...you dun want to gif the person false hopes but yet, u dunno what to say that will help them ease the pain....kind of ironic....but i'm in no position to comment i guess.......i'm in a state of confusion tooo.....after going to the sos party.....what hilda said really made some sense to me....perhapsmy thinking is just too warped.....maybe all along, i have been waiting for something that wun even happen.....i dun know....but i guess really if it's meant to be...it will happen....but if it is not......i wun lar...what the crap am i tokin abt.......
Sunday, November 23, 2003
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Have You Ever
by S Club 7
Sometimes, it's wrong to walk away
Though you think it's over
Knowing, there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round
Tell me...
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wish there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see?
That's the way I feel about you and me, baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin' down the road you should be taking
I should know
'Cause I loved and lost
The day I let you go
Can't help but think that this is wrong
We should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I finally realize, it was forever that I'd found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round
Tell me...
I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away
Can't you see?
Even though the moment's gone
I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round
Saturday, November 22, 2003
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heyz...i am damn tired now lor....hmm...yesterday went to SOS....with the 4/1 girls as well as zhiheng and zeyan....hmm...first time clubbing experience....i think it was quite fun lar....but dun realli see what the whole big fuss abt clubbing is about now........well, we kinda saw alot of familiar faces.....eugene ang....with this girl which i tot was my fren....hahaz...den that place was damn hot lor......quite sweating like siao.....but i guess my legs are realli aching liaoz lor....hmm...then xingni and they all said i was too innocent,.....haiz...have a lot more to learn lar....den later went to work with my aunt lar.....for the whole day...which meant i didn;t get to sleep at all......i was realli half dead by evening lot....luckily there was nt much ppl today.....so can leave early....i better go catch some sleep le.........
Friday, November 21, 2003
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Say Goodbye
by S Club 7
In the years to come
Will you think about these memories that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in you heart
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts is the only way now
for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies
In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner, no regerts
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world, I'd make this last
And when you need my arms to run into
I'll comfort you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel
1:45 PM
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my last entry got deleted.....so sad....hmm...yesterday just went to the gym with sihui.....and got alot of free gifts...ppl, dun be shocked at me going to the gym,......i have decided to change for the better....muz be more enthu PE from now on le....hahaz...that's my new year resolution.......den we went to this dessert house which realli sold awesome desserts....quite cheap too....hahaz.....quite a nice way to spend my whole day like that lar.....anyway, today will be going out with the 4/1 girls.....hmm...will be spending the night outside i guess.....den now trying to do a little bit of SAT practices.....i bought the book that costed 30 bucks....well, it's worth it if it can help me i guess....haahz......slept until quite late today....now my whole body is aching bcoz of the gym session liaoz......haven had anything yet.......maybe shall go eat that piece of cake in my fridge.......
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
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I WOKE UP LATE TODAY....haiz...slept too late last night lor.....so damn late for lect today...lk go to sch for half an hour lor....hmm...poned phy lect and went shuang han house....had quite a gd time slacking, eating and pretending to be a bartender with weiz, baoz, and mingyong....kaoz....den were sitting down and tokin abt stupid stuff....hmm...den went to meet irene....she came my house....slacked almost e whole day there lor....doin sumthing quite meaningful.....shall not mention it here....but jiayou and all the best....hope her effort pays off lar....hmm...as for me....hahaz...dunno what i am thinking nowadays.....rather confused by alot of stuff nowadays.....hmm....i'm doing alot of thinking nowadays lor......and realised the relationships between people can be so damn complicated....dun realli understand it myself too....everyone is protecting themselves.....everybody dun want to get hurt....but in the end....when u care more about another person......you will be the one that get hurt in the end.....i guess......so it's kinda ironic lar....hahaz....i tink me shall end here....spouting nonsense le......
love is selfless....unconditional....can encompass everything....by setting the person free....and if he/she is happier that way......that is actually what real love is about.....if he/she comes back.....it was meant to be
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
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make up lect all e way until afternoon today lor.......sigh.....so sian....i dun even think anyone was paying any attention to the lecture lor....haiz....but hahaz....today 'veeheng' lectured....hahaz....so quite fun......i was toking crap through the whole lectures lor.....sigh.....i dun tink anyone is in the mood to actualli listen to the lecturer lor......sigh....then after that went with mingyong to woodlands library to borrow SATS books....but like cannot be borrowed lor....damn pissed off.....haiz.....nj library got but then lk cannot be borrowed....what a waste of time....hmm...did a bit of shopping and bought loads of stuff to eat......then sat on my comfy bed and munch on chips and read a book today afternoon....slept for 1 plus hour and then started watching tv le....hahaz....what a life lor.....sigh......now online until dunno what time........i can get used to living such a life.......
10:18 PM
Goddess of the Sun and there's no doubt that you
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Monday, November 17, 2003
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I had a really fun day today....after so long of slacking....went cora house for a game of mahjong.....hmm....den played spot the difference with irene until we were both experts on the game le....hmm...today, blackie, jeremy, weiji, me irene and cora were there lar...hahaz....den we laughed lk siao at everfree blackie....like very bad leh....but stilll kept on laughing wah....hmm....den me accidentally broke cora's present.....i felt realli guilty lor.....den she lk a bit sad....really sorry......haiz...dunno what to say too lar.......den had a realli nice dinner cooked by cora....hmm....thank her alot for letting us come her house and cooking....but i guess she wun invite me le....hahaz....coz i'm lk a walking disaster at her house.....almost xpolde her house the last time and now broke her fav present....haiz....had a good talk with irene today too........hmm...i dun haf any good advice for her lar....but i hope everything goes well for her....i hope it will lar.....hahaz.....i gotta go prepare for tml school le....isn;'t it sickening.....need to go back in the hols....haiz.......
In the years to come will you think about these memories that we shared
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you
Sunday, November 16, 2003
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Today is an intersting day alr....hahaz....went with my whole family to the s;pore expo to watch the bodyworks exhibition....they exhibit ppl's dead body that has already been treated with chemicals....sort of preserved....i was like 'wow'.....realli fascinated....felt lk a little girl again as i walked around....kinda fun way to spend my whole day lar....den ate alot of things...dun need to pay coz my dad paid....hahaz....damn shuang....tats an advantage of going out with ur parents lar...no need to pay.....hahaz.....but seriously, the exhibition realli worth your money and time....realli interesting...but my legs realli aching lk siao now....coa i walked for damn long....haiz....
Saturday, November 15, 2003
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Truly Madly Deeply
I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful 'cause I'm counting on a new beginning.
A reason for living. A deeper meaning. Yeah..
I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...
And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of..
The highest powers. In lonely hours. The tears devour you..
Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes 'cause it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...
I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love, be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do...
11:12 PM
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hmm...going to ask shuang han for help on this blog....cannot make it le....blackie sent me this song 'jian dan ai' by jay chou combined with savage garden's 'truly madly deeply
'.....which is really very nice....can't seem to get the song away from my mind....haahz.....especially the song 'jian dan ai'......wondering why things can;t be so simple......juz go with how u feel....don't bother with too much things......guess i've learnt to take things in my stride lar.....no longer have the energy to think so much about alot of things.....juz hope that can laugh and be happy the whole day lar.....
today got CO.....haiz.....10 to 3.30....den me and mingyong went to orchard to walk walk...bought some stuff for myself....hahaz...den mingyong bought some things too....den we were like laughing and talking the whole time.....hmm....about sec sch stuff lar....den at first bought bread to eat.....hahaz...the chocalate doughnut rocked....and the ice cream realli damn nice......tastes realli milky......hahaz.....i thought will nv realli find new frens in nj lar....but i guess maybe i expected too much....today was quite fun lar......hmm....den laughed quite alot lar.......thanx mingyong!
wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai.....ai ke bu ke yi jian jian dan dan mei you shan hai....
Friday, November 14, 2003
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my tagboard is spoilt.....sad le....cannot see mgs that ppl leave lor....sighz.....sian....y some things are so complicated....cannot be simpler....den easier to solve wah....wun be in a bad mood.....can take things easier......
9:55 PM
You are Jasmine from Aladdin!
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Thursday, November 13, 2003
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haiz...today was a fun day...went out wif 03s13 gals....some of them...mingyong, baozie, serene, shuang han, wei wei, si hui....hmm...then that mingyong went off lar....wif her frens.....hahaz...that traitor....dun friend her le lor...den baozie went to meet us later coz she go and book a tour to thailand....muz buy stuff for me from there kk....i love t shirts...hahaz...get a hint or not?.....yupz...den went shopping and eating at bugis lar...hahaz....sihui was pissed coz we walked too fast....sorry lar kk.....den serene and me were laughing lor....weiz as usual.....looked lk a guy walking around coz we were all quite dressed up.......haahz.....den later shuanghan and seren went off first....den sihui went too...den as usual....left me, weiz....and baoz....den we went to slack at taka.....den saw this familiar gal flipping hair....guess what....it was wenjie lor...hahaz...she looked damn shocked to see us....hahaz...but realli missed that gal lar.......she was with her claz mates lar from 14/03....hmm....guess her claz will have a couple soon.....hahaaz.....den later went home with weiz.....talked quite alot on the train.......i guess she really knows what i am thinking lar.....haahz....but i damn happy today...coz bought an anklet and new shoelaces for myself......hahaz........i sound so damn bimbotic now....hmm...shld go out wif my claz gals more often.....
the sadness is always there....it never fades....but there's nothing i can do.....
Wednesday, November 12, 2003
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OP IS FINALLY OVER.....yesh....hahaz...tink the Q and A was abit tough......but overall.....not bad lar....no point thinking about it too.....i guess......so....me shall slack...hmm...realli looking forward to tml....going out with some of the girls in my claz tml,,,kinda enthused lor.....hahaz.....yay.....den can shop lk siao tml i guess......these few days have sort of been rather tiring....doesn;t feel lk the hols......coz everyday went back to school lar....monday was quite fun as went walking and talking with an old friend........den went to carrefour to buy a chicken....the lady seemed pissed off with us lor...what the hell....haiz.....stupid lor.....hmm...den spent the past few days worrying about OP lar....was not as nervous as i thought i would be....stuttered a bit but i guessed tok faster than i expected....hahaz.....hate tokin to a bunch of ppl....especially if u know them lar.......i gtg le.....going to watch vcd now le.......den haf a nice sleep...until tml.....will continue to slack and laze around at home......
gd luck to those PW that are after today....a few more days until freedom
Sunday, November 09, 2003
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Thinking about you... ... ...
10:39 PM
cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
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Saturday, November 08, 2003
'Faith makes things possible
Love makes things easy
Hope makes things bright'
Friday, November 07, 2003
tink there;s sumthing wrong with my blog lor....on top the words cannot be seen lor...sighz....today was ao chinese paper....i guess it was okay lar.......shall not comment here anymore on this issue....all i know that i;'m not going to be taking chinese AGAIN....for the rest of my life i hope.
hmm...went orchard with baozie and wei wei....met quite a few people like rosni, peiying, jelvin....hahaz.....den we were walking past heeren lor....den this dj was tokin....let me narrate the conversation here
DJ: this song is dedicated to those uncles and aunties who like to cha cha
(both baozie and me points to weiwei and laugh)
DJ: and to the 3 school girls
(all of us looked around)
DJ: from NJC....a good school....i came from nj,....made me a dj
(what the?......damn paiseh and waved to the dj)
This inccident is damn hilarious lor...hmm...we decided to organise a girls outing nxt week to watch movie k....(ppl...nxt thurs arh...better keep it free).....don't last minute all 'fang fei ji'....hmm...gonna concentrate on PW now first.....5 more days till i regain my freedom lor....
Den met zhiheng, francis, weixin, mingkok, ken, xiuli, esther, jiawen, hilda, wenjie.....we slacked at taka square lar....den went esplanade in the end...the night view is really breath taking....i'm just wondering how it will feel to go there with the person u like....and watch the night scenery.....it must really feel good i guess......to just talk about anything...that;s what we did lar...i realli miss those sec sch ppl lor....hahaz...we all same frequency lor....lk endless topics to talk about....hmm...must go out more often kk.....remember arh.....talked about loads of things lor...from our schools to our lifes.....though we all are at dif places...but i know all of u still remember all of the stuff of sec 4 and are leading a fun life......*smile*
I was watching the night scene....and i thought about you....and i smiled...i hoped u are smiling too.......and i'm wondering if wishes do come true
Wednesday, November 05, 2003
PW suxs....but glad it's almost over liao....today went shuang han house and did the flowchart....quite chio i guess...serene, baozie, sihui were also there...busy crapping....kind of like my claz gals now le....we get along quite well.....den very funny coz that baozie was reading that RJC yearbook to spot that army guy....hahaz....so damn funny.....haven realli studied chinese seriously.....haiz...and it's in 2 days time....after that....maybe ask claz ppl to go watch movie.....haiz...any reply?....post on the tagboard lar....a bit tired after so many days of PW lor....dying soon le.......it's almost as bad as studying for promos lor....*sigh*.....faster let PW be over.....haiz....6 more days......now, gotta go back and study my chinese le....
' ta xing li mian shi fo you xu duo gua nian
zai zhe shi jie, mo ge ren mo duan qing, he nan qu dai chong xian'
10:29 PM
IF I KNEW
If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.
There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"
But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.
So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear
Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.
Tuesday, November 04, 2003
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Monday, November 03, 2003
Guilty-Blue
'I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe
I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my hearts a crime
Then I'm guilty'
11:33 PM
I am feeling really tired now....maybe shall sleep early today....havent touched any of chinese yet lar....haiz...yesterday was the whole day filled with doing PW....ORAL PRESENTATION....shall not bother to write down what my pw grp members did lor....so lame....changed all the fonts to wingdings.....then have to change back myself....as if i nothing to do....but i went to sleepover at shuanghan house last night......coz really cannot finish and we worked until 1 in the morning when we were damn tired lor.....want to thank shuanghan for letting me stayover and really working with me through the whole time....and at last today. after 3 hrs just now....i have completed finalising the whole presentation......so happy
got back our results today....really sad for jess.....but guess i cant do anything to help her....just hope she can be strong.....and think about all the options she has....hmm....i extremely satisfied with my grades......chemistry C, econs C, maths A, physics B...i guess me will be taking 2 s paper nxt yr....think it'll be maths and physics....but afraid cannot cope and very difficult....well, shall enjoy life now and wait till nxt yr......hahaz....actually, wanted to see movie with weibin they all today lor....but too bad, all of us busy piaing last minute for oral presentation......so, didn't go in the end.....guess hope that tomolo's technical rehearsal will be a sucess.....and tomolo can go chinese claz....after 2 mths of poning....go suan the teacher.
Saturday, November 01, 2003
haiz....these few days sleeping once i get home....so long time no update lor.......anyway, these few days have been really slack....haven even started studying chinese....i'm listening to an elva hsiao song now,....like addicted to it le....die lor....hahaz...a christmas song.....really nice lor.
Yesterday met up wif hilda, jiawen, xiuli, wenjie and michelle....i see michelle like that i really sad for her....i'm afraid one day i'll be facing the same situation lor.....i will realli cannot make it lor.......maybe i know how to lecture her...but if it's me, i dunno what i'll do....so i guess...in whatever u do....juz dun get so emotionally attached lor....it'll be u who end up getting hurt in the end lor. Yup, so i guess i'm qualifying for 2 s paper nxt yr lot....physics and maths....so i'm really happy....but i guess after all these years......results have become a part of my life....it's more of a necessity than something that;'s not so important.....maybe people may think i'm stupid to place so much impt on academics.....but i've learnt it the hard way that it's the only thing that u will get somthing out of it if u put in effort....and i kind of like the feeling of being occupied.....to challenge myself.
I was walking down orchard road alone while waiting for hilda they all....and i suddenly felt really sad....lk i dunno where my life is going.....i dunno what everything means....guess i tink too much about some things......and i dunno when to let go.....but i think there are still ppl worse off than me lor.....but sometimes, i can feel very empty lor....like everyone thinks my life revolves around results lor....actually no lor.....i care about a lot of other things but no one knows only lor....
Something scary happened yesterday...me, mich, wenjie and esther were walking near the control.....den it was halloween wah....since quite late le....so we were lk a bit scared.....den mich turned behind and screamed....i mean, really screamed lor......den i turn and saw this white thing that seemed to be floating....den me, esther wnd wenjie screamed....and the stupid thing came charging at us lor......i really felt my heart beat faster lor......den it came us hug us.....and shouted ' HAPPY HALLOWEEN'....den it was actually this caucasian lor.....hahaz....so ridiculous....den out of nowhere, 3 more ppl appeared.....this guy had a costume with bloody intestines lor......and ask us if we were hungry....i was like 'what the hell'.....hahaz.... but it was an intersting day lor.....so scary lor.....
