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i'm damn pissed now...my blog entry got deleted!!!!!!!!now i haf to rewrite....stupid or not....hmmm....went to school today and changed into my sec sch uniform....looked kinda weird lar....but went to meet our junior claz.....hahaz...started the angel mortal game with them....it was damn fun as jiaxuan wanted to swopped partners....i was enjoying saying no and smiling....it can be interesting to see how desperate guys can get.....anyway, den had a farewell thingy in the hall for the vp ms kwa.....quite sad lar but i was sleeping throughout....so bad hor.....yup, den i woke up miraculously during the dance performance and i was amazed.....they were so graceful......i can nv be like that i guess....and came to econs lesson....that stupid minghong is in my group......and i sort of turned red when they were requesting him to be in my group....but it was due to anger...not shyness k......muz make sure,.,.....yup....and he;'s in my grp and my econs tutor thinks we are kind of together.....win liao....i jump into the river also useless......den went out with weiz after school....i bought loads of stuff lor....so happy....hahaz....and we ate kfc, slacked, laughed and crapped lar....it was kinda fun today as we kepy diaoing couples in school uniform la.....it's a miracle that we din get beaten up....anyway, to michelle: sorry counldn't meet u today,.....i had to meet my tutor......
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
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i'm in love with this chinese song....i've posted the lyrics below...hahaz....die liao....the song song keeps running in my head....the title is 'jian ao'.....hahaz.....anyway, i'm so looking forward to tomorrow....coz no cca....little lessons due to the ms kwa farewell...comtemplating whether to pon school or not....but tink i'm going tomolo...hahaz.....i'm so sick of school lately lor....like see no point in everyday...always looking to the weekend.....win liao lor.....hmm, nothing much to say today lar.....so ciao
ni shi fo du wo de gan jue
shuo zhou que bu she de diao tao
wo bu gai ai de tai jue
rang ni wo ru ci nan guo
wei he wo ai de yi qie
dou mei you jie guo.....
Sunday, February 15, 2004
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Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side
Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with.
Saturday, February 14, 2004
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HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL......hahaz....hope all of us had a fun day....anywayz....the day started off with me going to turf city......to run cross country....hahaz...damn sian...hahaz...but we strolled the whole journey....which was kinda fun lar....den sihui came in top lor....kaoz....she is so zai lor....i realli feel proud for her....and happy too coz her passion for running has not been wasted....she realli deserve it after so much training....i realli admire her determination....i will nv have that determination....at least, not towards running.....hahaz.....yupz....den went for lunch with the my claz ppl to eat....hahaz...the guys were quite happy to receive gifts from us girls.....hahaz....we were even more surprised yesterday when we each got a flower....hahaz...miracles do happen....i guess.....
yup, den went back to school for co lor....i was realli damn tired liao lor....haiyo.....3 hrs there lor.....but before co, went with jael to bath in the toilet....more lk baoz, mingyong and me were waiting there....wow....she looked hot in that heels and short skirt....hahaz....rather envious of her toned legs....haiz....hahaz....shall not elaborate....but den after that went shopping at the supermarket lor....bought loads of fruit juice and yummy things to eat at home when mugging....hahaz...in case anyone wants to know....hahaz...i'm dateless today....sad hor....but den i dun feel anything....felt rather happy and peaceful today.....i wasn sitting down in the bus listening to songs and looking out of the window.....and i was thinking.....it will be realli nice to go out on valentines day with the person u like.....and then i saw this guy gave his gf roses.....hahaz...i guess everyone hopes to receive a stalk of rose from sumone u like ba....hahaz....but den i wasn;'t realli jealous or anything....more lk envious....hahaz....but i believe there;s a time and place for everything.....so try to console myself that valentines day is a day that is overhyped and overrated....but i still wish that al;l the couples out there have fun today.......
ps. oh ya, thanx to michelle, wenjie, hilda, jiawen and to 03s13 gals and guys....thanx 4 e valentines day gift k.....
"If he doesn't love you in the way that you want him to, it does not mean that he doesn't love you with all that his heart."
Thursday, February 12, 2004
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Valentine's day is cumin....hahaz....feeling kinda sappy....and the feeling of love is in the air....hahaz....i heard this song on tv that day....and i tot the song is so sweet lor....juz the right song tor valentine's day....so, i decided to post the lyrics here
If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever.. oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through but
Nothings gonna change my love for you
If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you
If you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
he world may change my whole life through but
Nothings gonna change my love for you
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
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the days are getting endlessly long....and i have no idea why....tutorials seems to be dragging on forever.....haiz....my onli hope is the clock on top of the wall.....hoping that time will pass faster and i can go home and sleep....lame rite....co had a linkway concert today....i guess it turned out all right ba....but made a few mistakes here and there....den co practice was not bad.....at least, the conductor seemed to think i did quite a gd job.....i think that;s great ba.....hahaz.....at least i have made some improvement ba...juniors today are quit onz lor....qi ling is so damn hilarious and outspoken....ant caitlin, well, let's juz say first impressions dun count....she's quite nice too....hahaz....at least, she dun criticize u if u make a mistake.....and they brought so much things to eat during practise....hahaz...thanx alot....me and mingyong were sitting down and talking,......den seeems that we realli missed being juniors.....missed hwee, wenchang and weiming....haiz...hope to see them soon but quite hard lar......
shifting instruments realli suxs lor...what a nightmare today
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
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*love is in the air*
Monday, February 09, 2004
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had PE today...hahaz...but it was rather slack lar....sianz.....but i feel much fitter now liaoz.....hahaz...is that a gd sign?.....i guess.....lessons as usual were boring and we juz sorta stoned thru everything....got back my econs test.....haiz.....nearly passed....the key word is nearly but still, did not pass.....haiz.....shall not think abt it or i'll bcum sian diaoz again....phy test tml....haven really sat down and studied....that's bad news.....but anyway, i was feeling quite down today.....hahaz....and when i went home.....met joyce aka shimu....she's a damn nice girl i guess....talked alot to ler....and well, what she say made sense to me.....but i dun know if i should do what she says......well, my mind is telling me one thing but my heart is telling another.....what does that mean anyway....
i guess i didn't know what i did at that moment.....i'm sorry if i hurt you.....but i guess u dun realli feel anything....that;s why u can walk away without even taking a second glance.....and it hurts....it hurts me that u dun even care at all....
Saturday, February 07, 2004
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i'm finally home...yesterday was to tired to update lar...hahaz...but nothing much happened....except the horrendous thing we went through during PE....we ran like 3 plus km lor.....and i was running....but walked also lar....hahaz....now my legs are slight aching....i was so tired yesterday......hahaz.....and i went wif jeremy and irene to buy his bag....i tink it looks rather nice too.....had fun lar......btw, my parents are not as pissed as me as before liaoz....i wonder if it is good or bad....beats me.....and passed wenjie something yesterday....that gal arh.....realli miss her lar.....hmm...today got up early in the morning to go to school for the sexuality talk....i think it was quite interesting except for the abortion part.....realli changed my perspective on abortion....hahaz...
Ms stacey tan was like telling us lar.....dun use 'break up' as a form of emotional blackmail when u are in a relationship lar...i mean, all of us will hope that by doing this, the other party will try to hold you back.....but at times, u go too far and hurt the relation ship instead....and it made me realise a lot of things.....ppl like to be loved, to be cared for.....so u hurt the other person in the end....I guess the talk realli set me into thinking lar....like how you can treat a person so well when both of you are together....and how the person you trust can juz walk away without looking at you the moment you are together....i dun think anyone should give their 100% of commitment to anyone......the more you give, the more you hurt at the end...."Love is not a feeling, it is a commitment"
yup, after the talk, went for co prac until 4.30....damn long lor....haiyo...and i juz reached home.....what's the dif btw the weekend and a normal school day....i really wonder.....haahz....i keep banging into stuff lately...my leg is blue black now liaoz lor....sianz.....it will look terrible....and guess what, i'm running 3 km on monday again.....oh no...this is a nightmare.....and i haven even touched any homework now...i better go eat my diunner le....shows starting soon
i think i made a mistake.....by doing that
Thursday, February 05, 2004
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after last night happenings.,...i am so dead tired today in school...screwed my econs test...realli, i'll be happy to be able to generate a pass.....and i am so damn serious....ok....maths s paper was cancelled.....yeah....and i got to go home early lar.,...slept for a long time and now, i've juz woke up.....hahaz.....finally getting to catch up on sleep liaoz.....school was as usual tiring....i have no idea why this routine seems to go on for ever till dunno when...me and baozie were laughing like mad during physics...i hope the tutor din notice lar.....haiz.....damn tired nowadays....the pressure and workload is definitely getting to me....i sorta miss wenjie nowadays...it's been almost a week since i last tok to her and so long since i met her.....it's realli hard to meet up with friends nowadays....haiz.....and i miss irene they all.....nvm, will get to see them tomolo, i hope....thanks a lot to those ppl in claz who put up wif me today...wasn;'t feeling too good tempered ( i am nv gd tempered anyway...)....and to hilda: dun be too upset k.....hope to tok to u soon.....i guess i gotto be going now,.......hurry and eat my dinner before my gastric acts up again.
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
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pissed off now....my blog entry was deleted lor....after like i spent half and hr complaining......ok.....co prac was realatively great....finally managed to sorta make some improvement...i guess the conductor noticed :).....shall say what happened.....i am so pissed with the 2 people at home.....that bombard me with questions the moment i step into the house....what the.....ok fine....they are my parents.....it's realli irritating....ya....." you can drop ur s paper if u want "....ya rite....i can juz imagine what they will say if i drop my s papers.....hahaz.....lame rite.....and guess what my dad...he say he;'ll wait to see my results at the end of the day......ya....like as if i have ever allowed that to happen since dunno when......i guess they dun even care abt me having a life....all they care about is that piece of paper with my results on top....isn;t there life besides that?....i have lived like this since young le lor.....and recently i am damn stressed....i feel so behind time and lagging in sleep.....but i guess i like the feeling of being occupied....sometimes i wonder if i do things for the sake of myself or for my parents....shit....and all i did was to remain quiet, i mean, it makes no difference if i answered back.....no difference at all...my life is screwed up.....if what i have is even considered a life..... school suxs lar.....but i'm glad i still have frens by my side to support me through.....
Tuesday, February 03, 2004
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hmm....quite a few days haven't post anything here le....leading kinda sian life....nothing much to say lar....spent the whole of sunday and monday at home doing tutorials and watching shows.....well, muz admit that had a comfortable weekend spent lar.....hahaz...busy catching up on sleep too...but today went school.....felt realli drained and tired.....also didn't know why....but tutorials and lectures seem endlessly long....haiz....den today almost late....haha.....but manage to tap my attendance card in time.....*whew*......then was xtremely happy during phy lect as the s paper lesson was postphoned (note:postphoned and not cancelled).......was realli relieved to be able to go home early....ok, maybe 5 is not exactly early but to me, it is lor......reached home early and began eating on left over new yr goodies.....(sigh)......and reading my sis storybook.....haven been to the library for ages liaoz....hahaz.....kinda childish book i guess....den went to take a afternoon nap....(note: one of the few days i can afford to take a nap)......hahaz....and now busy writing 2 econs essay....i shall not elaborate on the fact that i wrote the wrong essay during the weekend....i guess most ppl should be sleeping now le lar....better go complete my essay and AQ question......