Monday, May 31, 2004

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had a sudden thought to pen my thoughts now...haiz...today is the first day of june hols, but guess what, it doesn't feel like the holidays anyway, coz there;s so much stuff to be done, and to return to sch almost everyday in the next 2 wks....haiz...damn tired lar...misssing the times in sec sch where realli could slack during the hols....not like jc...have to be busy mugging for common tests....spent the whole of today at home le....catching up on work...that seems to be endless esp phy...wanted to go out with jeremy they all...but decided nt to as today is one of the rare days this wk i'll be home e whole day....

i guess i probably wun have much to blog abt in the hols le lar, anyway, i juz realised that one of my gd fren is not what she seems to be, she appears to happy 24/7 but recently, i kinda realised that she is not always so happy lar, but i realli admire her for the way she thinks and acts....anyway, weilun bday is on this thurs....we are going to celebrate for him this sunday....whee...looking forward to that day i guess, to see all of them again, besides that, nt planning to go out le lar....until the genting trip....haiz....

hey ppl out there, hope u guys enjoy ur hols and even though it;t time to mug, try and get more rest ya?....hahaz...

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yest was too tired to blog liao....went for cip in early early morning lor....at outram which is damn far from amk....anyway, saw the s13 ppl...went for breakfast with the guys and girls...hmm...wow, we had porridge, you tiao, soyabean milk, chee cheong fun....hahaz...damn nice lor...eat until so shuang....den went to do cip....ended up slacking with jael at bugis looking for nice nice clothes...haiz....din realli do much but i must say, realli enjoyed shopping, went with serene and baoz to a temple to pray and to ask for a gd luck qian....guess what, it was not that good....haiz...nvm, will jiayou for common tests....anyway, i tink yesterday was quite fun lar, we sorta interacted more with the guys lar...thinking of a claz outing to sentosa after common tests....hope it can work....maybe shuangz and me wun look so pasty liaoz....hahaz...

anyway, after that went swimming myself....realli fun....but when i reached home, i felt damn tired lor....slept for 2 hrs liaoz...and chatted with cora last nite....had a nice chat lar....since a long long time abt things....hahaz..den began mugging liaoz....did a bit of revision lar....haiz,.....

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happy....happy, me so happy....hahaz...last day of sch but had 2.5 hrs of chem by gwee...nearly sleeping liaoz lor...but admire him for being so enthused...hahaz...cant believe it....anyway, quite sad coz my econs teacher wun teach me nxt term le...will miss her as she is very nice lar....and slack....sometimes lar...but she;s a great teacher....den after sch went town with my mum....hahaz...we went shopping and hahaz...i bought so many things lor...clothes, bag,.....and ate nice noodles at a dian xin shop....that's the advantage of goin out wif ur parents...dun haf to pay....and i got a nice dog to hang on my hp....hahaz...so happy....but like no chance to wear my new clothes....haiz...i sound so bimbo now lar....tml is cip....hope to haf fun with e 03s13 gals....we will be slacking and eatin lar....den i tink i will go and swim at night....hahaz....putting on weight liaoz...haiz haiz...nitez

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it has been a long day...had cca until 6 plus lor...so sian diao and practise same songs all over again...oh no, we are going genting in less than 2 wks and i haven practise enough....oh my....die die liaoz...but i am so tired lately...dunno what is happening lar...sumthing drastic happened juz now....

me, hwee and mingyong were going out of the band room oushing the stupid chime....anyway, we were pushing and guess what happened, i saw 4 aj ppl....and den i looked at the guy...it was weiji lor...drastic...in nj compounds...i was like...oh my, how cum so qiao...turned out he is returning out instru....i was shocked until i dunno what to say...i din even say hi lor...hahaz...but then went down canteed and saw him...so gt say hi...but was too busy to tok lar....kaoz...drastic.....nvm

anyway, i am realli tired nowadays....and nt in a very gd mood...haiz haiz....sometimes u get concern for sumone....and in return, that person juz uses a pissed tone to tok to u....hello, i have feelings too...doesn't mean i dun show my unhappiness means i'm happt lor....maybe to u all i am juz nt impt enough....maybe to u all, i am very sui bian one....i;m not, i;'m sorry but i realli dun feel like that....

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tired....haiz...today juz received co practice schedule...realli hiong lor...i die le...all my hols are gone...haiz...no time to study le...i tink i gotta coop myself up for like 1 mth lor....and i dun tink i can finish...with the 1 wk trip to genting...haiz....den i sort of stared at my common tests timetable....everything is happening so damn fast....i;m not going to enjoy this hols at all...instead, i begin to dread it....haiz....tired lor...esp during econs lect....catch no ball...hahaz...

anyway, shall tok abt sumting gd now...my claz is beginning to show signs to unity,....scary...hahaz...we making this claz jersey thingy....hahaz.,..hope it will be successful...and we are even planning claz outings after common tests...isn;t it cool or what...hahaz...dunno lar....these few days, it began to hit me that i may miss this claz after all lor...after all, i've gotton so used to all of them....many differnt ppl....esp jieli crapping,....kinda sad that after a plus yr, i den realise tis...hahaz...anyway, we have half a yr to go,....so well, shan;'t think abt this first....hahaz

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yoz ppl, i'm back liaoz....my com broked down for 1 week...but now after being repaired....it's back and alive and kicking...muz i mention that my data are all gone....shit....all my downloaded songs...sobz....so sad....70 plus lor...oops, think it's kinda illegal to openly download songs...hahaz...hmm, i juz came home after shopping with my parents.....bought a chio skirt and a watch...haahz....very happy le....but the watch hor....looked quite weird now....nvmm i never pay can liaoz...hahaz....

hmm, the past week have been kinda aimless ba....fell like going swimming on monday...yesh, i admit i'm kinda mad.....hahaz...anyway, happy belated bday to wenjie on thurs....the gals and i went out to eat lor....haiz....and we slacked and crapped around alot....haiz....quite fun lar coz i realli miss them....sec sch frens....anyway, my mum has came up with the idea i need econs tuition....win le...my hols is going to be so damn packed lor...what else with going genting.....haiz...but it'll be fun lar...sitting in that cable car....hahaz...anyway, to kiat yee: thanx 4 leaving a note on my tagboard...long time no see...but keep in touch k...

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my layout sucks....hahaz...smth is wrong with my com ba....or maybe it's that server...haiz...i shall repapir it soon if i haf e time...yesterday went with hwee to ajco and band concert....wow....it was realli nice lar...esp the last part where everyone combined together....hahaz...i tink they realli put in loads of effort lar.....and they have alot of ppl in their orchestra...but mostly girls...i guess their percussion is quit zai and the songs they played are very grand that type lar....all in all, i had a great time lar.....hmm...saw friends performing for the first time......rather impressed....haiz...now we haf our own concert to worry about....die liaoz lor....dreading and dreading.....today was damn tires....was slping thru econs lect....i need chicken essence or coffee soon....and i'm so lagging behind in tutorials....but anyway, i'm glad irene seems ok le....oh ya, bought myself a new water bottle....think it looks quite nice.....hope nt many haf it....or i will sian diao....i better go back to mugging le.....

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hey....i was too tired to blog last night....hmm...went with baofei to watch 50 first dates yesterday....had a lot of fun crapping with that girl....haiz...she is one of the most hilarious frens i have....hahaz...so origina...her jokes hor....can die laughing....den this two sec sch guys sat nxt to us during the movie...hmm....we were laughing at them....but i had a gd day lar....thanx 4 peiing me to the doctor....hahaz....uh, bought earrings too....think they are quite chio...i am having a fetish of long and dangling earrings i tink.

anyway, co today was tiring...one of the first time in a long long time i kind wish the practice will end asap....it was so hot and i was realli tired...haiz....anyway, managed to weasel out of attending college day as i got mc....whew....den went home to bake a brownie for wenjie bday with esther and irene....it was quite a sucess lar....anyway, we broke the news.....i feel realli bad.....realli sad for her....but there's so little i can do....the rest is up to her....i tink she will be okay after a while....but in the meantime, hope she dun feels too sad as she still has frens like us....cliche but what to do....

anyway, i guess that life works in a weird way....last yr at this pt of time....alot of stuff kinda happened to all of us...but in a yr....everything has become normal...juz lk how it was before jc....i'm beginning to change my perspective on certain things....beginning to be more pessimistic...baofei asked me yesterday ' how do u know if u like a guy'....i juz answered that it depends alot on the feeling, the chemistry as well as the time, place....etc....a lot of factors come into consideration....to all couples out there...treasure ur relationship as it is hard to come by...

den went to wenjie house to give her her present and brownie...i realli hoped she likes it....hahaz....i tink it's quite cool i can juz pop by her hse to pass her gifts and den crap and slack with her....this is what gd frens are for, i guess....hope she is nt sick affter running in e rain....anyway, happy early bday to wenjie!

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i am back...basically, didn't did anything productive today....hahaz...had cca juz now, came home, slacked and watched american idol....diana roxs...i have concluded....haiz....feeling guilty now liaoz....guess i shall work hard tml....rest early tonite....hmm, decided to smth drastic this week...we will tell her....i feel realli sad for her...i realli do....but sumtimes, the best advice to one is that life is complicated....no matter how you feel....some things juz happen....maybe it's better in the long run....though it hurts now....i have this feeling before in the past...but however much it hurts, you will get through it....in other words...you have to get through it.....life moves on.....it does not stop....hahaz....

talked to lianne today abt stuff.....she believes that there is a place after death where everything is perfect.....i disagree...how can you be happy when everything is perfect and flawless....i have no faith in any for of religion....maybe i should go find out more in the future.....to believe in smth that is not there.....but yet, you have a believe....sounds complicated huh.....oh ya, there's a prob with my blog....me very sad....the image is gone and the tagboard is screwed...so ppl, try and leave a note ya?....see if the old mgs van be replaced....haiz....

=you are my ver first thought in the morning
and the last on my mind in the night=

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blue's new song breathe easy is just so nice.....i guess the lyrics is realli nice....hahaz....muz go and illegally download liaoz....nowadays...kinda busy with cca and stuff lar....haiz....every morning wake up dreading to go school....and guess what, had a s paper phy test today....whew....at least the ppl beside me were discussing...can;t imagine exams.....tml there;s co again....haiz...tired lar...but i guess i'm realli having fun, especially with mingyong lar...she is reall a great help and can crap with her....hahaz...and our jrs are nt too bad, all willing to learn and very friendly...:)

i guess i'm sort of feeling tired now...as in physically and emotionally....am i supposed to feel this way as i'm in j2....or maybe it's the fact that my life kinda is monotonous....like i don't envision getting anywhere....but i guess i;m lucky to have great friends around me...that's one gd thing about everything i guess....but i'm beginning to see tiredness and weariness in everyone..stress will be comin soon due to the july common tests...i have no idea how we are going to compete out revisions....oh ya, thanx to lianne for lending me her shirt and her brother's phy revision guide....hopefully it will help lar....haiz....i better go back to mugging soon....

'Out of my mind
Nothing makes sense anymore
I want you back in my life
That's all I'm breathing for' -blue, breathe easy

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i'm very touched by a certain someone.....i didn;t know that person could behave that way.....oh well, life is filled with surprises everyday......but i guess i'm too late.

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basically, nothing much to blog sbt nowadays....haiz;.....titration today was bad....we were all like mad cows rushing here and there.....i wanna go shopping....haiz haiz....like long time never go walk walk le......sianz...but realli like no time AT ALL lor....or maybe i'm juz lazy.....haiz.....tml is meet e parents meeting....die liao, my parents going....oh well.....anyway, decided that i should do something about my econs....it realli suxs lor....i dun realli understand anything sometimes.....hmmm.....juz woke up from a 2 hr nap....shuangz sia....hahaz.....long time nv sleep like that liaoz....tml will be a long day with cca....haiz haiz.....but nvm, tink it will be fun lar....juz that i;ll be tired like siao too....kinda miss the aj ppl liaoz....like seems quite long since i last toked to them....actually, juz 1 week lar.....but hope that they all are fine lar....i guess all of us are also very busy with stuff lar.....hmm...anyway, going to do food chem nw le.....

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whew....juz read baofei blog...i realli like reading her blog...it's damn corny and interesting lor....juz makes me laugh and feel happy lar...unlike this mundane blog of mine....hahaz....hey baoz, the lyrics nice rite.....i guess sometimes, juz have to let nature takes its own course....and hope that i dun get anymore shocks in the meantime....anyway, it;'s beyond my means to care and so....i shall not think about it....hopefully....hahaz...i am jealous of weiz weiz le....hahaz...baozie, i dun care, u muz make me ur main character in ur blog nxt entry ya....to prove that i;m still a great fren....hahaz...later i go missing.....

shall stop e crapping.....today is a long long day....until 5 lor....still have s paper....imagine sitting in that stuffy LT trying to figure new phy principles and discovering smart ppl sitting all around you....hahaz....i kinda felt amused by how 'enthu' some ppl can be towads the s paper questions....esp some guys....haiz....whatever.....i;m totally drained plus a ton of homework to do lar.....tonight is going to be a long long nite.....

here;'s a shoutout to s13 gals....thanx 4 brightening up my life ya....and for all your care and concern......i know sometimes i'm too noisy le...but this is known as active participation in claz wah....hahaz....and i hope everything goes well....continue crapping ba.....juz like the FISH video!

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i think you should know....i realli think so...but i dun think i'm going to be the one to tell you.....

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You got me counting the seconds
It happens every time
I'm waiting for the moment
we can sit down and talk for a while
And every time that you're near me
my heart is running away
How can I tell you when words don't come easy
and there is so much I'm trying to say

Chorus:
I wanna know that love will surround us
and you'll share it with me every day
Tell me you'll care for me now and forever
I'll give anything to hear you say
that I'm more than a friend

I'm gonna try in the future
not to live in the past
I guess that I was a dreamer
if I thought it could ever last
But every time that I see you
you bring me out in the sun
How can I hide it when we are together
I just know that you're the only one

Chorus:
I wanna know...

I wanna make you see
everything you are to me
Try to understand
I wonder if you can
The love I have for you
will always be true

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Perfect love is rare indeed - for to be a lover will require that you continually have the subtlety of the very wise, the flexibility of the child, the sensitivity of the artist, the understanding of the philosopher, the acceptance of the saint, the tolerance of the scholar and the fortitude of the certain. -Leo Buscaglia

7:28 PM

Saturday, May 01, 2004

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went out today with jeremy, cora, irene.....wanted to study...but ended up shopping...we stumbled across this warehouse sale for body shop...bought loads of nice nice things at a real low price lar....hahaz...cora bought her african spa...hahaz...we were so happy.......hahaz....anyway, went later to this cafe to study.....before going there, we were walking....and guess who we saw....we so weiji walking lor.....towards us....den he was dressed realli nicely lor......i was shocked....ok, before i could do anything, he came along with us....den i asked dem why he was here...den they say that it was a coincidence....den nvm, when we reached that cafe....he took out his notes and tys....den i was like....how come he cum town got bring homework one....nvm....den i sorta guessed that they asked him along...damn gao siao....and we were telling lame jokes once every half an hr while studying lar...hahaz....laugh until i roll liao....it was a fun day....and i studied organic chem till carboxylic...so now i left with nitrogen compds.....polymerisation and nmr spect....haiz....the last 2 topics are nt too bad i tink,.....and tml got phy tuition....die le....haiz....

11:13 PM