Thursday, September 30, 2004

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today was totally boring....i'm at a stage where i am starting to study but yet still slacking....haiz...so many nice tv shows to watch until my mum keeps complaining i'm acting like a person who has finished 'a's liaoz...i mean....give me a break lor....okok, hahaz, shall not lament about it le lar....i went swimming juz now...coz today was an early day, the pool had onli like 3 ppl?....hahaz, but i had fun even though i went alone....kinda feel happier after swimming as i've been eating so much junk food lately, that happenes when one's mugging....oh ya, i got back my gp compre...it was atrocious....i guess i'll have to pray for my essay....siannz...had 2 hrs of gp today....so damn tiring lar....tmr have 2 hrs of chem prac...oh my god....2 hrs of gwee.....i confirm sian diao also....haiz....shall go wdlands lib from this sunday....

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ok, i'm finally quite settled down le....at least, trying to concentrate on hitting the books now....hahaz, hope my mugging momentum quickly comes back lar.....anyway, got back most of my prelims paper today.....was pretty satisfied at my 2 subjects, phy and maths.....den econs not completely sure of my grade yet but i tink i'll be quite happy too lar, at least my essay and mcq improved le la...so that;'s something ba....oh, den chem realli as i expected, cmi lar....i looked at my paper and realli sian diao....so many wrong for physical chem and some more careless....gotta work on it soon le.....oh ya, my phy design exp got lk 1/16 lor....i'm literally shocked....hahaz...some more is mr tek mark one, he confirm diao me nxt time....oh, and i failed my maths 's'....haiz....dun care le lar....hahaz....hope gp will be all right....but all in all, muz work harder for 'a's lar...jiayouz...

=do i still feel anything?=

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i'm back home le...decided from tomorrow onwards, i shall bcum serious towads mugging...realli play enough for the past few days le....hmm...tml may get back papers le...kinda nervous though everything is already done le lar....haiz....have to pray and juz hope for e best then....anyway, today went shopping with esther for grad night dresses....we couldn't find any lor.....i mean, i didn't see anything that i would like though....oh no, i have nothing to wear le...maybe i'll end up wearing the same thing as somebody else lar....sianz.....but happy today coz i bought 2 new t shirts....hahaz, one looks quite nice lar.....yeah...can wear to woodlands lib to mug le...hahaz...den at night, went to celebrate mid autumn festival with the 4/1 ppl, me, mingkok, xiuli, hilda, esther, weixin and francis...damn fun lar as we acted like little kids esp weixin.....then francis was so damn innovative with the candles and all that...i kinda miss all of them...and i'm so glad we meet up often...though today not many ppl went....but i realli enjoyed myself and realli laughed alot...i guess onli old frens can make u do that....hahaz....but was sorry that wenjie and jiawen din join us lar....nvm girls, nxt time kk....sure got loads of chance one...

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i'm so bored at home...hahaz...so sianz diao at my short duration of a new found freedom....but i shan't complain as it will be back to mugging quite soon....ugh.....win liaoz lor....anyway, the past few days have been fun, fun and fun...hahaz, finished my papers on friday....felt so relieved even though i screwed the paper...then went to play badminton with jeremy, irene, blackie and weilun...haiz...i was not in a very good mood that day as i wasn;'t realli feeling well lar...paiseh den me quite attitude....well, it was quite fun though...they all so zai lar...irritating...den had dinner together lar....

yesterday went out to celebrate jiawen and esther's bday....hahaz, we went to this la mian restaurant at esplanade and it was not too expensive lar...but the service hor...realli cannot make it...we waited for like 45 mins for a plate of noodles lor...and i was super pissed off with the waiter coz he gave the rice hor....lk less alot for weixin lar...hahaz, den obviously me was lk complaining to the waiter...haiz, i know it was paiseh but we pay so much lor...kinda justified ba...hahaz...anyway, den we walked to the merlion and talked and talked lar...it was quite fun lar...with all the girls and the guys...miss them alot though.....juz like how we were in sec sch ba....sometimes, one realli believes that sec asch frens can realli lasts the most ba...we took loads of stupid pics....hope to upload them soon ba...hahaz...

today was realli bored...me and alan decided to go out and slack....we went to westmall, lot 1....hahaz, den tok about stuff lk what type of houses we want to live in in the future...long time no meet up with him le lar...was quite fun though....still the same crappy guy ba....and we still have endless topics to tok about, in a way, that's good lar....wanted to actualli meet up with peiying and azhari too....but haiz....nvm, wishing peiying all e best in her promos and a very happy early bday to azhari...shall mgs him tmr ba.....and now, i'm super irritated with my sis lor...haiz, dun want to tok about it here le....sian diao...tmr is dress to impress, and i'm so not looking forward to it...hmm, den maybe tuesday i will be going with the 4/1 gang to bishan park to celebrate mooncake festival...hope the guys realli buy the lanterns and mooncakes...hahaz, i will bring the pomelo....dunno how to spell though, looking forward to it...

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yupz, so here i am....finish prelims....hahaz, i didn't count the 2 s papers tmr and on friday....hahaz...so damn happy now le...anyway, can't believe that 17 ppl of us went to marche at suntec yesterday....oh my...to sort to eat and celebrate baoz bday....first time i went there lor....i thought the food was super nice lar...but i guess it's quite expensive though....well, it's marche what....they din allow us to cut the cake we brought in there lor....we had to pay 20 bucks if we wanted to do so...i was like 'huh' lor....hahaz, but hope baofei had fun lar...hahaz....damn funny lar...coz she was lk shocked to see the cake....hey girl, paiseh it had to be so belated but you know, we did out best le....hahaz.....sianz lar.....den went to walk about with sihui, shuangz and weiz at carrefour....paised to weiz weiz coz i dragged her along though she looked damn tired....hahaz....but i had fun lar...going out with them after exams....sian diao...if no s paper, i can go out now and tmr and whatever....haiz.....but i'm lookin forward to badminton this fri...it's going to be damn fun....hahaz...

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okok...last 2 papers are tomorrow....and it suxs.....physics paper 1 and 2 plus econs paper 1 and 2....but i'm not complaining coz tmr is sort of the last day....disregarding my 2 s papers that officially onli ends on friday....but that one confirm cmi....so me juz so looking forward tmr....have been slacking today....no momentum le....hahaz...hmm...hope tmr will be fun...having dinner with my claz girls....hahaz....yipee....as we can slack and slack...but first....i'll have to go through hrs of torture before that....plus today stats for maths was quite bad, at least for me...i did below my own expectations...oh well, there's always the 'a's still rite?....hahaz...hang in there ppl....i believe prelims will be over soon....jiayouz!


=Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away=

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well, i am feeling like super guilty now lor...i didn't mean to say things i shouldn't....din realised that person will have such a violent reaction....to me, i realli dun see any point in doing so....but well, i'm not ther person directly involved....i dun see why people should be over sensitive sometimes....i guess after these few years...i've learnt to think less and be less sensitive...life will be easier that way....i guess.....or else everything will become so damn complicated...which is what we don't want.....we have come so far to being such great friends all together...but this may juz be the factor that breaks us apart.....but i can see how much each of us care for one another......but i guess it's not enough.....haiz....why become so complicated le....i am so dreading tomorrow....i know it's all my fault and i'm sorry.

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i'm irritated coz my previous post was deleted...how irritating is that lor...now muz retype, anyway, was juz sayiing though me dais i din want to post for 2 wks, realised i had to today....anyway, prelims is ok ba....i'm anticipating to fail chem though.....realli cmi lor, and to think i studied the most for it....oh my, what will gwee say....he confirm say our claz a bunch of ungrateful ppl and how much effort he put in....haiz.....die le.....but well, chem is over, *prays* for physics and maths le lar....sian diao lor.....oh ya, tried doing a few macro mcq on econs juz now...haiz....tink cmi too le lor....but today was not in a very good mood....well, coz of prelims and stress and everything else, was realli touched by what wenjie did lor...haha, thanx girl.....i'm sorry coz i din mean to lose my temple on purpose....*guilty*....but thanx 4 being such a nice fren ya...and the brownies were awesome...my favourite lar....hahaz, ppl, hang in there lar...prelims is almost over le....5 papers more lar.....dun count s paper...hahaz.....jiayouz wor!

+ i dun know how i feel anymore, maybe time realli changes everything +

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wun be updating for the nxt 2 wks.....juz tired and drained and sick of basically everything......i think i will be sinking into depression soon....trying so hard to stay focused now.

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today had econs tuition, i'm seriously worried for econs the most this time round as i didn;t realli studied lar.....i realli had no time....1 wk is nt enough, not even the time i spent ponning lectures and tutorials for 2 wks bere hols....shit....and prelims is juz 1 day away.....haiz.....today went to woodlands lib to mug after tuition....it's my new home there le....anyway, glad irene is ok le lar....we wer so worried lor....haiz...tmr i'm going to the library again...have to reach there earlier to book table...haiz...damn drastic....thanx to co eunice and yongxin who helped me today lar....i am so damn paiseh but realli want to thank them alot exp yongxin...i dun tink she'll get to read this though....hahaz....anyway, i fially finished organic chem le....yay....so tired and going to sleep now le....hahaz....tmr shall be a chem day as welll.....sigh....

+realli happy today too...thanx so much but even a simple thing you do can brighten up my life, i'm not going to think to much about it though....some things are just meant to be left aside until time tells+

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i'm so tired....these 2 days have been spent at woodlands library mugging lar....hahaz...but quite fun lar coz mugging at a nice place lar....guess i wun be updating alot for nxt few wks....there's juz so much to do...and i'm realli scared for the prelims lor...dun even haf e mood....and organic chem damn sucky....haiz....why can't i remember anything AT ALL....haiz....gotta jiayou le...to everyone whu's mugging, jiayouz...prelims will be over in 2 wks.....haiz...i hope time flies but yet, enough time for me to mug......arghhh

+i'm realli happy today....guess maybe it's stupid but i really am :)+

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sianz....i tink i'm going to be sick soon le...having a blocked nose for e past few days...can't realli breathe properly at night...anyway, my mum is back from e hospital le...so dun have to worry le...hahaz...*heng*...i haven't had time to go ask her what the doctor said though....anyway, hope serene gets well from her fever...die...i still feel me abit slack and not realli prepared for prelims...shit....nvm, i shall mug at the library tmr.....haiz....life suxs...

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worried abt stuff that u shall nt mention here....anyway, *prays* that everything will turn out fine.....really hope so.....distracted for a while today....wanted to go to woodlands lib to mug but in the end didn't make it....didn't want to go back to an empty house so i called wenjie.....i'm realli glad she was there for me like always....(girl if u are reading this, thanks alot for today)....ended up having lunvh with her and going to her house to mug......hahaz...had loads of fun lar but was damn distracted by the tv....i'll try to work harder tml coz i know i can....but it's juz weird you know, like some friends are always there for you no matter what, and those that u thought will be, they tend to juz dissappear for some reason or another, oh well, maybe i'm pessimistic ba....but i'm juz tired....maybe i did realised something today after all, i dunno......but i had quite a gd time today, at least i forgot abt what i was worried abt for at least a while.......filled with guilt.....

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yesterday badminton was real fun lar...hahaz, but that jeremy and irene played so well lor....me and blackie lk statues there lor....but i guess nxt time we should book a court to play...coz the wind so damn irritaing....hahaz, but realli had fun though...muz ask my claz girls to play one day too ba....anyway, i stayed at home e whole day today,.....mugging and mugging, me studying organic chem now...until like late into the night.....damn irritating coz i cannot remember....organic chem sucks lar....and i onli lk have how many more days lor....haiz...wondering how's everyone doing.....and there's this stupid person keep leavin mgs using my name on the taagboard....like huh, u mean that person so no life and nothing to do lor....hahaz...back to chem now...

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the past few days have been a total bore....i guess i'm practically ponning school everyday lar....sianz....hahaz...spent the past few days hibernating in the library....woodlands yesterday and today at ang mo kio....haiz....conducive lar but i guess life's pretty boring....tiring too....everyday i slp, eat, mug....that's abt it le lar.....i guess barely 1 wk to prelims le....have to put in my best le....anyway, tmr going to slack a little and play badminton after tuition....*happy*....back to my econs tuition essay now.....haiz....

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