Thursday, March 31, 2005

i cant believe i am still awake...means that i will have ard 6 hrs of slp later...haiz...been doing project related to my job since like 9pm until now?...deadline is tmr noon and my boss realli begging us to help pia la...haiz, at least i finished all the tabulation and i'm super super hungry now lor...den my hse like no food de....now thinking of my carrefour chicken plus potato salad. Haiz, i wanna go Bintan nxt month lor, to get away from everything. Think me begin to think like hilda liaoz, i will go mad if i stay in Singapore any longer lor. Today was a bad day as i was super stressed at work until i kept silent most of the time. Haiz, ppl who know me well should know that i seldom keep quiet de lor unless i am in a bad mood. But i'm glad i'm taking half day on friday to go shop with my colleague yee woon, haha, plus we are going to open a savings account to save up money lor. Its my aim to save up this few months, at least half of what i earn la...so better to get a savings account that is 'frozen' de. Looking on e bright side, tmr is like thurs le which means the weekend is coming le....hahaz, oh ya, registered to go attend this baking lesson next week to make apple and jasmine cake...hahaz, shall try and see who is so lucky to try it la:)

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true

I'm exceptionally artistic!

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haiz, the long weekend is gone liao and tmr is monday again. sigh, life really is sian when one starts a new week counting down to the end of 5 working days. I hope this will only be the case for the nxt few motnths. imagine if my life nxt time is onli abt looking forward to public holidays and weekends, that'll be like so so sad. But nvm, nxt wk will be pay day le lor...hahaz, super super happy and i can go shopping soon le! The weekend was rather well spent la. Yesterday went out shopping with esther and have seen many clothes and bag that i wanna buy when my pay arrives. hope it comes quickly. Oh ya, den went to eat secret receipe at night plus watch ms congeniality. oh man, that movie was like anticipated so so long by me liao. And i tink it was hilarious and nice la...first time watching a late movie with my fren. Oh ya, we went to carrefour and saw a lot of yummy food. I think the ideal date will be going to carrefour to buy the potato salad, chicken, ice cream, sushi to some nice place to go picnic lor. Haha, haiz, but dun tink that'll ever happen but its nice to think abt it though.

Today went to watch the eye 10...i swear, that movie is so lame that it is funny and not scary lor...i was like laughing all throughout it when i was supposed to be afraid. Den slacked at cafe cartel once again but honestly, the cafe cartel at junction 8 is realli nice la, all the seats got cushion one. Pretty good place to slack and talk at the same time la. But my mood today wasn't realli good, felt realli tired after the swim i had this morning. And not forgetting the fact that some ppl just cannot read more into what i was trying to say and take a hint. Haiz, now is jue wang liao and decide to forget abt everything.

juz settled my uni applications. phew, ltr will be going to pay money le. at least i dun haf to worry abt any more applications. can enjoy the day now. oh ya, decided on chem engineering for those who want to know. its something i had been wanting and thinking about for 1 entire yr.

I'm super tired now, just came back after gathering with the 4/1 ppl. Haiz, today all of them saw me in town lor, den juz now asking lame questions la. Die liaoz, and dog weixin they all keep assuming things lor, and saying scandalous things that i supposedly did. oh my, super paiseh also la. den esther hor, also never side me lor...keep adding oil to the fire also leh....hahaz, until me speechless le lor. But dinner was allright la, the usual stuff and laming about. I'm really tired this weekend, have been looking forward to the long break. Am I like working too hard?...sometimes i really ask myself this also la. oh ya, yest nite went cafe cartel to drink this nice nice ice coffee thing. i realli like it alot lor, super sinful but very yummy....plus the oreo on the cheescake was nice, but i still dun like cheesecake la. hahaz, going shopping with esther tmr...and hopefully have a nice sat night out with another fren.

12:29 AM

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Its finally wed le....tmr shall be the last day of work at office for the week, so relieved lor. getting abit claustrophobic being stuck in that small office space facing the computer. I forsee a slack day of data entry tmr once again but as long as time passes quickly, i'm not complaining. Hahaz, and i got this wkend job for fri and sat....it pays like $16 bucks per hr working at this POSB bank giving out brochures...oh man, highly paid sia. Haiz, i know i'm realli money minded le....hahaz, but i am going to treat my family this wkend to dian xin la and maybe going shopping soon...so i need money till my paycheck arrives. which is like nxt fri...hahaz, so i'll be one happy girl this wkend la plus going to watch a nice movie this wkend. Plus the wkend job will be with ying rui la...so at least we can crap during our break time lor. juz praying that tmr passes quickly and the wkend passes slowly.

ps: really love this song called 'going crazy' by natalie. ppl, go and listen la.

11:32 PM

Sunday, March 20, 2005

today can be considered a peaceful afternoon. went to sat down at secret receipe to have some yummy cakes and a yummy ice mocha. never went there before but the cake hor...really very nice. plus the music that was playing is not bad too and so, had a great conversation. dunno why but quite happy with the way things turned out and i wld have to say everytime i talk to u, it'll be a very different side of me. i'm somtimes also amazed by the way i act at times. but sometimes you can read my mind in a way that's scary. hahaz, take care for the nxt wk.

9:53 PM

The walk from orchard to ps was really peaceful and serene as no one was around, the scene near ps opp the istana was really nice, and i really liked sitting there and just talking. Perhaps it was too late, and I had to hurried home. But perhaps it was because of this that I really wished that time would stop then and there.

9:54 AM

Friday, March 18, 2005

its finally the end of the week....an end finally to working at tabulations and statistics....relieved sia. today at work was busy as usual but i guess time passes quickly on a friday la...haahz, super shuang. oh ya, met up with s13 ppl for a mini claz gathering...not bad turn out rate, got abt 15 ppl...hahaz, think its e best so far. went to eat pasta at cine and it was quite lame to see all the guys without hair...and after dinner, juz went walking up and down orchard la...so super tired lor, and guess what, we juz slacked outside borders lor after walking so much...though it was only a while, but really glad to catch up with all the guys and to hear abt their posting today la.....hope they dun feel too sad when they book in on monday....haiya, very fast den can book out too de la...hahaz.

took the train home with weiz...hahaz, girl, we muz go shopping nxt mth when i get my pay la kk...i wanna buy alot of things lor.....clothes, bag, shoes...hahaz, will be splurging lor. oh ya, we shld also meet up with lianne la, go her hse or smth, form the bimbo club lor....hahaz, rmb the plans we made before a levels lor. haiz, now super tired le...shall go slp and get ready for tuition tmr morning....3 hrs of english lor...kaoz.

11:54 PM

cant believe i stayed till like 7 plus at office today, oh man, i was planning to meet bro jeremy they all de lor, den the boss dun let me go, or maybe i was too paiseh to tell him...and i decided to bring my work back home to do to meet e deadline tmr lor...hahaz, so rmb to bring my disc in my bag so tmr can be submit...haahz, die le, why me this temp staff so workaholic, oh mans. anyway, yee woon not coming tmr...haahz, i will miss her and be bored to death lor....realli treasure her as a fren and a colleague...can pei me go work as well as discuss alot of personal girl talk la....hahaz, glad to know such a fren at work.

dinner with the aj ppl was realli fun at pizza hut...hope cora likes the gift i gave her, its also kinda nice to see those guys, jere, weilin, weiji and blackie la...and the girls are all working la. Though all of us have drifted apart, but i always feel this sense of warmth when we are together la, time seems to have pass so fast. i can still remember stepping into my first 3 mths claz at the beginning of 2 yrs ago....but i;m juz contented that all of us still can meet up once in a while to talk crap and to eat, hope to meet up with the guys soon too.

sometimes i realise i think alot...and i wonder if its good or bad. hahaz, this one wenjie will understand me best lor:). wondering is it worth it to think so much and yet, i may be the one to get hurt in the end in anything i do la. but i guess though i'm a practical person, i sometimes wonder to go with my heart or my head. it's complicated.

ps. gd luck to guys posting tmr, jiayouz wor!

12:43 AM

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

8:50 PM

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

today was a great day. went on leave for the first time in dunno how long la. hahaz, but had tuition in the morning though but nvm, at least i cleared one lesson. den had to rushed all the way home to change to go home. hahaz, anyway, went to watch howl's moving castle la. I thought the show was quite nice but super long lor...hahaz, and i was like wondering when it will end lor....hahaz, but ok la, quite a simple movie though. After that we went to eat sakae sushi la...long time never go that place to eat le...since like dunno when...hahaz, tink ate alot of nice nice things la...hahaz, super yummy lor. but i guess more importantly was the company la....really had a good time juz talking and eating as and when we like. Den went to esplanade rooftop terrace la, that place is super super beautiful....muz ask 4/1 to go instead of sky garden la....the view was really terrific. too bad my dad use my camera last nite and changed the settings...hahaz, or else me can take pictures le lor...nvm, shall go there again. But it was really nice sitting there, enjoying the background music and talking about alot of stuff. But realli glad to clarify alot of things and i really feel better now liaoz. Not to mention totally throw away my face liaoz. some people juz cant understand that there's no explanations for things that happen. hahaz, they juz haf to know all the reasons lor...hahaz, so mah fan de lor. But i really had a great day today, not to mention, a great day with a great fren.

11:16 PM

Monday, March 14, 2005

feeling really tired now plus all my joints still aching. sigh, i think i contracted some old ppl illness lor. work today was really bad. using the new computer programme really made me wanna give up then and there la. I'm really glad me taking leave tmr lor, this is like the 8 day in the whole week i've been working and i'm really drained. At the same time, i really feel guilty la coz we were supposed to hand up the project this wed la and we are like half way done. at least i am. nearly wanted to tell him i'm coming to office tmr but well, decided not to for a better reason. oh ya, called the s'pore power scholarship in charge to tell her i would be withdrawing my application and nt going for the interview as no point compromising my interest in the course i want to get the scholarship la.

den now rite, i may be staying homr tmr lor. drastic la, take leave den stay at home la. not that i would mind but well, to stay home when i have a project to rush is really bad. Lame la, den wanted to confirm details about what we are doing tmr but guess what, some ppl are juz too busy to ans the phone.shall maybe go swimming alone tmr la. haha, that's what i usually do though. It's juz that i'm juz dissappointed that something that i was looking forward to actually is of such low significance to another. whatever le lor, juz that i should have known.

11:08 PM

Sunday, March 13, 2005

long time never update this place le. I think I'm dying soon, as in, my whole body is aching since i came back this evening....i slept for 2 hrs le and drank loads of water but my entire body feels terrible and every joint hurts. Shit, i always feel like that when i'm really tired....today i was so tired that i couldn't think properly by the time it was like 5. All I could think about was sleeping and sleeping and when i reached home, i was a gone case le. But was really happy today was i bought my digicam. hahaz, my dad mgsed me that the IT fair was the last day today and asked me to go get something i liked. hahaz, thanx to bro jeremy who pei me all e way there, and squeeze into that damn place la....so super crowded lor and i hardly could get to see all e models of camera but jeremy was realli nice about the whole thing la. He helped me to get all e brochures and waited while i took my time and advised me the whole time. Hahaz, i'm realli glad to met up with him today la....and i realised he's a really great guy, that kind of guy that most girls will be looking for. Haha, plus he's super sensitive la and has sensible thinking. I mean, which guy our age actually maps out his budget every month so as to save part of their miserable NS pay?

anyway, yest went min kok house for bbq la...before that we went to this NUS open house...super lame lor, and i wished i didn't go la, but i guess i've decided what course to take and where to go. Feel really relieved after deciding la...hahaz. Oh ya, den went for bbq....as usual, we were toking cok la, realli glad that zhiheng came la, long time no see him le la. And we spent rest of the nite talking by the pool which looks really inviting to me...hahaz, and all of us gals juz concluded that guys our age are totally retarded lor...and that it is really tiring to fall in love with someone once again as well as how some people juz stay together because of commitment and not time. Shit, i juz realised that i'm a likely candidate for these people and i will lead a boring life forever stuck in some chem lab. hahaz, as jiawen always say, i'm square la.

Plus now, i'm so super irritated at someone la. Really wanted to watch a movie coz really very long never watch le lor. Den that person had to go watch this movie we were planning to watch with some other people. i mean like, i thought we already say le lor, perhaps it was to insignificant to be registered in that person's mind. Whatever, den dunno why me get so worked up now lor....and whole body aching now. Den the worse thing is that that person like dunno me abit sian diao and angry now...den final conclusion is, win le and no movie for me to watch le. And i feel ridiculous for feeling this way, i mean, why should i even bother about this entire thing at all. Once again, i'm being unreasonable again. But considering that i took leave and tried to finished all my work by the weekend, i really am pissed off.

10:32 PM

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Yup, I'm back liao. Can't believe I spent 3 entire days trying to fix my stupid com as well as install the broadband...hahaz, but seeing i'm online now...this means that I'M CONNECTED....hahaz, even got scolded by my dad juz now lor. Haiz, oh ya, on friday, got back out A level results. I must say, I'm really happy coz my results met my own expectations and glad my heart work paid off le la. I think I'm really happy for all the people around me too, coz i think they all did very well too. Oh ya, after that went out with the 4/1 gang to go eat thai express (yummy, thanx hilda), haha, and went to sky garden to slack with 2 tubs of Walls ice cream. I'm realli glad i have those ppl as my gd frens la, they never fail to brighten the day and we certainly had alot of fun that day!

Then saturday went out with a fren to buy handphone. I swear, i am totally sick of goin into handphone shops, hahaz, i tink we went in about 5 times that day lor, plus if add the times we go in before, its like so so many times. But even though I was realli sian diao, i guess i would have did the same if i wanted to buy the handphone...hahaz, but the handphone is really nice la and suitable for him.(if u reading this, muz swop phone with me a day k?) Anyway, realli glad for the time spent even though both of us were nearly fast asleep by the time you got your phone. Haiz, but too bad that we always meet up with a time constraint and sorry if i really seemed sian at times of the day.

Work is busy nowadays with OT sometimes. Hahaz, me wanna go take leave one day to go out and slack liao lor. Nvm la, tmr me and yee woon have company outing...2 of us, i'm going to buy a new bag and we are going to shop plus eat nice food. Hahaz, i'm busy but very happily working though.

10:50 PM