Saturday, April 30, 2005

I just got back and I'm so so tired. Lack of sleep has caused me to be talking nonsense now. Yesterday had a great time at the sleepover at shuang house. Hahaz, we had fun meeting up again and talking about retarded stuff. I really miss the girls so much esp baoz and long time no meet le. I will be posting the photos up soon. haahz, had a great breakfast at coffee bean at town with them today *yummy*. Guess I'll be seeing shuang in 1 mths time when she gets back from the States. Hahaz, muz buy present for us k? haaz, will miss you alot till u get back and meet up. Have fun ya?

Oh ya, met up with my first 3 mths frens tday, bro, cora, weiji, blackie and weilin...had fun juz eating dinner and talking crap...hhaaz, hope we will be going to JB soon together to eat seafood! Hahaz, long time since all of us has met up liao but glad everyone is still the same. Its when some time has past when u have not met up with alot of gd frens, den u really treasure the time you have together. Real glad to have met up with them and hope the guys jiayou at NS. and me and cora dun get sick of out jobs soon.

Oh ya, i have the best news. Received NUS letter of acceptance to Chem Engineering le, super super happy. Hahaz, so guess i will be going to NUS den le la. All the brochures seems pretty cool. Shall go read it later. Plus my basic theory is shifted to 9th May which is 1 week away? Hahaz, hope i can pass la.

Ok, i finally went down to the driving centre to register for basic theory under the persuasion of my collegues and boss and teo hwee. hahaz, they were saying it is good to actually take it as theory is for life. Hahaz, and i will learn driving. Juz a matter of sooner or later onli lar. So, my test will be on 24th May which is like one month away? Hahaz, and if i really pass it the first time, will really take time to spend the months ahead learning. One thing to ask is, is private better or school betteR? hahaz, any ideas ppl? I guess private will be cheaper and more flexible especially since i will be working and guess what, my colleague even recommended the instructor to me. Hahaz, so should i just go ahead and learn private?

Today i'm a happy girl. My boss went out for a meeting this morning so the office is closed until 1 pm today. Hahaz, which means i onli need to go to work at about 1pm today. Which also means i get to wake up at 10 plus today morning. Oh man, i feel so shuang and no i'm eating my favourite chicken pie my dad bought for me. I'll be moving to the new office on fri liao, going to be in the same company but at a different place. Really going to miss going to and fro work with yee woon lar, anyway if u are reading this, realli want to tell you i'm happy for you and FO....hahaz, u know who i am talking about. Ok, no more crapping and slacking with ken and yee woon le, i'll be talking to the wall instead. But at least today is wed le, muz hang in there as i have 2 more weeks to go. Oh my, having tuition tonight, got so many things to go through.

Today was a pretty long day at work. After 2 weeks plus of rest, i can forsee myself going throught the sian routine of work, tuition and sleeping. Hahaz, it can be quite draining sitting in front of the computer the entire whole day. The only thing that keeps you motivated is the packet of biscuits beside you and the paycheck that will never seem to come. Hahaz, not to mention the weekends. Today was exceptionally bad as I was along in the other's company office. I was so bored that when the guys from the other company came back, I kept talking crap with them. Anyway, these 3 days are going to be terrible as i have work and tuition consecutively. But hopefully thursday and friday will not have any tuition.

Was pretty pissed off today by my tuition kid and parents. It's hard already for me to go through all of the kid's 4 subjects and to keep up her learning pace with the school with loads od assesments. I have to explain like mad, make sure she understands the assesment in like 2 sessions a week of 1.5 hrs. On top of that, her maths and science is rather atrocious. And today, her mum had to ask me to go through her chinese and english spelling with her from today onwards. She says that ever since i stop testing her, her chinese spelling grades are atrocious. Win liao la, how am i suppose to do so many things in so little time? Parents nowadays just expect tutors to produce results without even considering their child's abilities. They assume that by all they have to do is to just pay and expect a miracle. and its not like they pay me alot too. Haiz, it isn't about the money but i tink that the kid's parents should really help her in her studies too instead of pushing everything to me.

Ok, she better get decent scores for her next chinese spelling. Else I'll be screwed.

i'm so bored now, i tink i will not really sleep tonight coz i slept too much today liaoz. Anyway, yesterday met up with the 4/1 ppl, actually wanted to go chinablack but all of us realised we all looked so tired and den we decided not to go. So instead, we went to rouge for drinks lar, and the music was blasting so loudly until we couldn't even hear each other. Hahaz, i guess for drinking, that place is not bad. But it was pretty boring after a while so we went to play pool. Hahaz, i tink i really cannot play pool lor. Oh ya, went to watch a midnight movie after that and it was so super cold lor, plus the movie was not really that nice. Lame though. Hahaz, and we waited till the first train came lar. Oh ya, jiawen and I are going to complain to SMRT for their lousy train timings, we so tired and waited so long and guess what, the 12 mins sign appeared on the screen. Kaoz, super sian diao at that point of time. But nxt time we want to meet up, pls dun overnite. I was super tired lor, and slept 8 hrs today lor. Hahaz, so now i cant sleep now.

Haven't been really in a good mood these few days. It's quite complicated to write it down here as this is a public blog. Perhaps there are some emotional periods that one has to always go through. It's been quite some time since I am feeling this way le. But I know that this phase will pass very soon, i hope it does also.

something is very wrong with my template, there;s nothing there left now! *angry le*, anyway ppl, i'm juz back from home after 2 long days, i went to my grandma place to stay plus had to surrounded by 2 of mine uncute cousins for 24/7. As hilda said, me really grown up le. Hahaz, i cant believe i totally enjoyed the past 2 days spending time with my family away from any distractions like work. I survived on junk food, yummy lunch and dinner by my aunt and watching VCDs of hong kong drama serials. Oh ya, and i was basking in the attention of my grandma coz it has been realli long since i went to her house to stay. And yesterday i went shopping with my cousin, aunt and grandma and guess what? My cousin got lost at junction 8 and i nearly roamed the entire junction 8 3 times to find him. I think kids nowadays really very naughty lor, very super scary lar.

But I realised that my grandma may be sick, coz she seems to forget every thing very often. My uncle was mentioning that he wanted to take her to the doctor as she has a really bad memory and its quite extreme, not the usual kind that old people have. I can really see why people always say that old people require more attention. From these 2 days, I could really see that my grandma loves to go out but seldom have the chance to and being alone in the house can be realli quite lonely. I'm really glad i got to spend some time with her these 2 days.

Tmr is back to work again. sigh.

I am home super early on this saturday night. Hahaz, i had like 4 plus hrs of tuition since today morning at 9 am lor, nearly died liaoz. The pri sch kids are nearly drove me crazy today lor, have to like explain 100 times to them? And they still dun get it. But anyway, today did the most drastic thing ever. I wanted to go swimming but didnt want to go alone, so i called my cousins along. Hmmm, me being a 19 yr old person going out with 2 guys aged 12 and 13? Hahaz, so all 3 of us went swimming together and they were so hyper that at first, i thought they will be going to drown lor. Hahaz, but not too bad lar, den as the pool was near my grandma hse, we went to eat yummy stuff which was treated by me by the way. But its so interesting to see how contented children can be. They were like saying "go buy the drink from the provision shop as it is cheaper?" But i really had alot of fun today with them...oh ya, i met my swimming coach who taught me in pri 1 at the pool today. Hahaz, he still looks the same lor and still there coaching. Then I saw this little girl running to him to ask him some stuff, and in that moment, I could realli picture myself doing the same thing like 10 yrs ago? Oh my, but i was too paiseh to go talk to him though, dun think he will remember me also la.

The later part of the afternoon was spent at my grandma house slacking...everytime i go there, they really treat me damn nice lor, kp asking if i want to eat la, drink, and so many more. Oh, was talking to my auntie juz now and she was saying that maybe i can help her bring my cousins to bishan park, den we can go there cycle together...hahaz, sounds really fun lor. Plus my cousins super enthu and they were saying ask me faster plan. Hahaz, i tink the cycling trip will be quite fun.

Just came back after meeting some of my jc frens for dinner and a trip down to indochine. Hahaz, i really miss those girls lor. I can't believe I actually tot we will drift apart after jc la but so glad to meet up with you guys la. Hahaz, i want to go to the beach soon la to tan, after going swimming, my tanline (if i do have one) is atrocious lor. Thanx to shuang, weiz, ming yong, baozie for such a funny nite we had la. Not to forget shuang twin sister...hahaz, so qiao that she always join us in our outing, but she's really fun too. Oh ya, first time at indochine...i tink the drinks that contain fruits taste much better, but i guess i sometimes wonder why people pay so much for alcohol when u can pay less for ice coffee and it tastes so much better. Anyway, the lighting there at indochine was realli nice, and its looks rather posh. Except for the fact that it was realli dark inside and the music was blasting until i was about to go deaf. We had to like shout to get ourself heard. But i really had fun meeting up today especially the pictures that we took.

Serene: hey girl, miss having you around today la, hahaz, we went to the taka shop that you like buying sweets and biscuits from and we were talking abt u. Organise nxt outing kk?

Today something really nice happened to me. It was raining quite heavily and I had forgotten to bring my umbrella. I was standing at the traffic light waiting to cross the road. Suddenly, I felt no rain upon my head any more even though it was still raining. Then, I looked beside me and realised that this auntie was using her umbrella to shelter me. Hahaz, she was super nice rite? She even sheltered me all the way across the road to the bustop. Haiz, its great to realise there are such people around.

The weekend is finally over. This week, felt really good as i didn't go to work for 4 days...hahaz, company taking a break. Sure, 4 days worth of pay is going to be missing but i'm glad for the time for myself and the hours of sleep i have caught up with. Will not be working for the next 2 days too so i guess i'll be renting the vcd
'dolphin bay' to watch. Have always wanted to rent vcds to actually sit down to watch but haven found the time to do it...at least, the next 2 days will be spent at home slacking and watching. Oh ya, talk about my baking course. My apple cake was quite weird coz i tink i did something wrong in one of the steps...have to go figure it out...hahaz, but i tot the bread i made tasted okay la...hahaz, shall try experimenting once again but i really enjoyed myself at the baking claz. There was this auntie whom was super frenly and really asked me alot of stuff la. I realised that it can be quite nice talking to aunties and she really taught me alot of stuff.

Oh ya, went to watch 3-iron...that show was really abit disturbing lor. The male and female lead didn't talk at all throughout the entire show lor and some parts were quite hard to understand. Hahaz, maybe i'm juz dumb. The movie was another genre of wat i always watched. But i guess it was not too bad, especially since we had free tickets...compliments to jingling. Hahaz, so qiao to meet her and she super nice gave me tickets.

Den today went to bugis junction to walk around but there also very sian lor, coz we didn;t feel like buying anything. Oh ya, my shoe strap broke lor....so paiseh, den i cant stand it anymore so i walked barefoot at bugis to go get another pair of shoes. Ok, talk about humilating....but i guess things always have to happen to me lor...hahaz, dun laugh if u guys read this kk. Had a talk with my fren today. Realised alot of things today, and sometimes, the truth may really hurt. But it is up to us whether we want to accept it or live in denial. I guess for once, I accepted it.

It's weird how the same phrase of words may mean the same thing but when u hear it from another person's mouth, you get a total different feeling.

weiz, shuangz, baoz and ming yong: indochine on thurs kk? hahaz, onz liao

today went out with the 4/1 girls to celebrate hilda's belated bday at swensen. Hahaz, i really missed sitting down and talking crap with them so much lor. and that jiawen hor, how can be so simple minded?....but ur story abt that perverted customer really super funny lor...hahaz, we laugh until mad la. Anyway, gave hilda her present which was like her third pair of slippers? i swear, dun list down wat u want on ur blog lor, end up will have tons of similar presents. But it was nice to see everyone again la, and the ice cream we had was super yummy though. hope hilda had fun juz spending time chilling out with us even though she got a repeated bday present. Oh ya, super excited now coz tmr going for my baking course for the apple cake...hahaz, hope it tastes yummy.

hilda: thanx for the advice girl. i'm glad u told me ur views and how i shld handle this la. dun worry, i wun let myself be hurt de la. it means alot to me to hear that u totally understand how i feel.

wenjie: hey girl, paiseh i neglected the fact nxt fri u nt free la...kk, sorry la. dun be angry k. anyway, thanx for ur advice la k? i know u know what i;m thinking also la...my best fren wor.

A good fren of mine just told me this guy said 'I love you' to her, and both of us were quite surprised too. Both of them are not together yet but i think that guy really likes her alot. So, I've been thinking, how it is to feel that you really love somebody. Personally, i believe that like and love are 2 totally different things. There are so many people who mistake 2 ppl liking one another alot as love, and yet there are ppl who love each other but never get together. If it is so easy to tell a person you love her/him, does that then mean you don't really mean it at all? But even if you never get a chance to tell the person you love him/her, does that then mean you dun love that person?

i'm so super pissed off with the traffic policemen in s'pore. Guess what happened, i was in a hurry to rush to the MRT station today. So, i juz crossed the traffic light when it was red as there was not realli any cars around. and halfway thru the road, i noticed this policeman across the road staring at me. So, i was like thinking, he cant possibly be catching me for jaywalking? And guess what? He came up to me and said that i had to pay a stupid fine of $20 for jaywalking. Oh man, that was like the most humiliating moment ever, and he even asked for my IC to take down my particulars.

Me: Do I pay the fine now?
Him: Nope, we'll send it to ur house by post and u can pay urself.

All the way, i tried to remain calm as he returned me the IC. And now, after i told my mum, she's freaking out as she thinks i may have a criminal record. Sigh, super unlucky.

hilda: stop laughing at me ya? Hahaz, it's not supposed to be funny. Anyway girl, Happy early bday ya? Hope to meet up this friday kk, hahaz, not to celebrate ur bday but to slack and catch up. Dun misunderstand hor. Anyway, can;t seem to post in ur guestbk...can u pls approve my mgs...haha

I came upon this quote while i was blogsurfing, really think this is very real and true but yet, sad at the same time.

i'm suddenly struck by the brevity of everything. how when we're in the moment everything seems so real and solid and permanent...but how much of this will even be remembered?

how much of all these fleeting experiences will be in our memories?

time and place changes our memories...we'll look back on the same ppl and same events and realise that we all viewed them with different importance and that our memories of the same things are so different, and so we're such different individuals and our experiences during that period of separation have created an unbridgable gulf that prevents us from picking up where we left off...

when our lives intersect again, it is usually a totally new thing...

it's never the same as before.....

and that scares me because though that means u'll meet again, it might mean u just meet and realise how far apart u are and then we all move apart again after that second momentary meeting

this weekend has been quite a relaxing one. Didn;t have time to go out too much as yesterday, went to work at the avril lavign concert...hahaz, oh man, her concert was like awesome lor, and her life performance really super nice, though the concert was rather short. And guess what, i'm realli contemplating to buy her new album after yesterday night, goes to show how much i realli like her performance last night.

Didn';t do anything much today except to going swimming today morning and catching a movie in the afternoon. The wedding date was rather ok show la, not as good as i expected it but that genre of movie hor, will not be a bad show either though. Was rather glad to catch up with my fren and talk abit la. Realised how army life really sucked for most of the guys and they always soung so sian diao talking about army life. But I guess they;ll have to bear with it la....hopefully things will get better once their course ends.

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Friday, April 01, 2005

today has been FUN, FUN, FUN...hahaz, me and yee woon had a company outing coz today is our off-day. Hurray! Hahaz, went to the bank in e morning as i'm going to open a savings account in order to force myself to save money lor...hahaz, not bad hor? And we went shopping all the way until 7 plus. Think my new place to go will be bugis flea market liao lor. I bought so many things today, bag, shoes, tops and pants...haha, too bad didn't manage to find a skirt i liked. Oh ya, bought bro's bday present as well as a present for my tuition kid. (I'm a gd teacher). And i tink the shirt i bought for bro is super super nice...hahaz, brown one from fresh box. I think its also the one that one of my fren wanted. Think it'll look really nice on bro and i hoped i got the right size. Hahaz....sigh, needless to say, i spent alot lor but i was really happy. When i get my pay check on mon, i swear i'll be heading to the bank to open a savings accout le. Haha, i cant keep spending like that lor.

But today i was super happy until my fren mgs me about something that made me angry lor. Don't even want to think about it any more as the more i think, the angrier i get. Shall now let this person spoil my happy mood today. Why should i care when u dun even do?

10:13 PM