Tuesday, February 28, 2006

bought a new mp3 player...muhaha, finally can haf one with a bigger memory sia....oh, totally in love with this old song by westlife called if your's heart is not in....

If your heart's not in it, for real
Please dont try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it

this is part of the chorus...and i think it's really meaningful....haha, even though if this is a sad love song...muhaha, i guess everyone of us has a soft spot for westlife songs....at least, that's for me. sigh, this week is going to be really busy with our dnd this friday...wells, at least we get to take loads of nice pictures i guess:)...

i hate those ppl who try to act superior in front of me when you are not....it just irritates the hell out of me that i have to put on a smile jus to entertain you when in fact, i dislike you so much. So what if you get better grades? It probably means that i'm just not good enough or you are a better at your studies. But deep beneath yourself, you are simply just an empty shell. You even caused me to question myself as to why did i even bother with you, and how shallow i've become by even talking to you. Just stop irritating me.

nothing much to write about lately, certainly quite a mundane mid sem break....and i'm trying to revise some of my work.....haha, guess the most interesting part of the hols happened today....well, our hall d&d is like nxt fri at mt faber....so went down to the costume shop to rent costumes for myself (everyone has to go down) and guess what? haha, i;m going to be a witch...pretty unconventional choice but wells, since everyone is wearing white and dressed up like angels and fairies, i figured that i would wear something diff....muahaha, and i am going to even borrow my cousin boots to go with the costume...heex, thanx to her for being so nice as to lend me hers.

went suntec in the afternoon for captain's treat, so sorry to make waiyu treat all of us...but wells, it was yummy yummy food....heex, this restaurant called ichiban boshi, a jap restaurant, really quite yummy food, first time i ate salmon that was so nice, and oh, we had soft shell crap handroll too plus tempura ice cream....haha, didn't mean to make anyone feel hungry but it was really quite yummy wor....haix, and i was actually planning to go buy the book memoirs of a geisha, but i kinda forgot about it...so sad esp i was just near times and MPH....really loved the book as i read it once and wanted to buy it to keep as i love re reading nice books....hmm, maybe i'll go get it tmr? haix, and i want to get this white spagh top i saw today....sigh, more money again.....feeling rather hungry these few days and down with flu.....i need to exercise soon....haha, going to become fat le sia....haix......

went shopping yest, bought myself a pink top...it looks kinda nice but the words are a little funny on it...hee, oh wells, jus glad i took the time to go out and shop a little....hee, i wanna buy more clothes too but mango and zara had too many ppl there yest.....oh wells, maybe the next time den?

going to upload pics now den.....btw, i really miss the s13 girls and 4.1 girls....haix, too bad all of us are too busy to meet up....sigh, and wei wei, lunch anytime at NUS soon? haha, haven talked to u for ages sia:(

a picture of my messy room, this is what happens when i get too strssed up:(

flowers and my favourite present of a precious moments crystal ball

pink roses made my day:)

i feel so sick and stressed up abt everything till my head hurts now...pls let everything be over soon....

i had the experience of wrapping so many roses yest till i'm sick of them....haha, and it is definitely not easy trying to be a florist though....oh wells, let's just hope that we earn loads of profits ya? sigh, valentine's day is certainly a profitable day where businessmen can earn alot of money from......on the bright side, i've learnt the invaluable skill of wrapping flowers.....haha, but just dun make me do it on the next valentine's day.

oh, my class guys were so nice to give each girl one stalk of rose.....how sweet they can be at times....hee, but i had a great dinner too tonight.....:)

Pink roses made my day:)
thanx for the flowers and the precious moments figurine.....it's really very nice and i loved it alot.

finally have time to sit down and write about yesterday's dinner.....had dinner at one of the restaurant at CHIJMES, nice place with great ambience and the food was quite yummy too...haha, seems that yest was a rare occasion as i FINALLY finished all the food on my plate...haha, i usually eat lesser though but the food really was quite nice...

oh, think that place is a good place to take pictures too....haha, the pictures i took turned out pretty nice too....too bad i looked a little tired sia...must be all the late nights the past few weeks....but it was certainly quite refreshing to shop around suntec after that and i saw wendy and bernard too....haha, such a coincidence lor.....i always seem to meet my friends on such strange occasions.....and i want to go shopping soon....haha, too bad not enough time le.....plus the fact that i'm kinda broke recently....oh wells.

talked abt quite alot of things over dinner....haha, seem to have endless topics to talk about sometimes....which is kind of good cos i dun really like silence...but i was pretty tired at the end of the day, maybe cos i walked around too much le....haha, long time since i walked so far....but really enjoyed myself tremendously though.....felt really happy too and i guess i couldn't stop smiling:)

thanx for such a great dinner!

look at the time now...and i'm like still wide awake....i can't seem to sleep so i jus kept doing my lab report till i jus noticed the time. oh, please let me fall asleep....my body is so screwed. I want to sleep but I can't seem to fall asleep and its 4 for goodness sake.....

Mastered the technique of making rocher flowers for vday from gwen...heex, and all of us made like 100 flowers in a few hrs for the valentine's day presale...oh mans.....was damn tired after the entire thing though, and my shoulder was aching like mad....hmm, but i think the flowers we made are really nice and it really took effort wor....heex, so ppl, if u dun want to buy real flowers, do buy from NUS CHESS club ya? hee, chem & env engineering student's society wor.....heez, esp those from the same fac ya? :)

have been sleeping ard 3 for this entire week, my body clock is freaking screwed up though....sigh, but i do take naps like in the earlier evening? but i think my eye bags are coming back though....hmm, but still behaving as hyper as ever though....well, time really seem to pass faster this sem though....

oh wells, vday is coming soon....time for ppl who are running a business to earn loads again...lets just hope our club earn too....hee, and for me to receive loads of things ya? haha, after all, it';s frenship day too...so to all my friends....i dun mind u all showing a little appreciation ya? muhaha.....

I'll be there for you
If you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
(doesn't this quote sound really nice? heex, i guess ppl shld nt ever expect others to change too much...after all, its a person's true self that you should love and not expecting the person to change for u)

i found the previous quote somewhere while i was surfing on the web.....how true is that.....i really am trying to take in a deep breath when i feel really nervous and stressed and tell myself to focus and believe that I will be able to do it.....it is just that I have been really busy recently and i think it is going to be this way for the entire sem.....my weekends are filled up with tutorials to do and revision to catch up on....and the tutorials just keeps piling up faster than I can finish them.....so basically, my social life during the weekends have been reduced to a zero and the only exciting thing i may do is probably to hop by the nearby pool for a swim.

on a happier note, i can't wait for this weekend to come....will be looking forward to dinner on sat night....at least i can to go out for a while away from my work.....but time seems to past pretty quickly this sem and i still can't believe that the mid sem break is in 2 weeks time. oh well, i do need a break.

thank *you for simply just being there. Time seems to past more quickly and i enjoy having lunch nowadays. Despite many grumblings and little unhappiness at times, *you still made my day.

Things don't always happen as easily as you'd like, but you can think of that more as an opportunity to open the door to your inner strengths. Take a deep breath. Focus. And it will all turn out easier than you expected

realised that my body clock is pretty screwed up....sigh, this afternoon was feeling really sleepy even though i just woke up from an hr nap....and i slept 2 times today afternoon....what a pig.....and it didn't make me feel more energized....but at this ungodly timing now, i am more awake than ever.....sigh....and it's almost 2 am now and i have to wake up at 8.30 tmr....haha, i think staying in hall have really made me a nocturnal person liao....really worried about the huge amount of tutorials that i seem not to be able to complete....and it just keeps coming in....oh man, plus 2 lab session this week.....it's going to be a long long week though:(

anyway, spent the entire weekend at home and mugged quite a bit as well...haha, went to the pool on sat...really missed swimming for the past 1 month....sigh, but the pool was super crowded, as in a human traffic jam with kids jumping in and out of the pool but i guess it was quite fun....and had a rather productive day....it has been quite some time since i stayed home the entire weekend to catch up on my work....i think this is going to be the schedule from now on though......but this sem is rather ok, as in no more swimming practices on sat or tuition as i really have no more time....

dinner was good....we lao yu sheng again....i think i seem not to be able to get sick of the yusheng....haha, even though i think i ate it at least 5 times this new year....but i really feel good to be back home and have loads of yummy stuff to eat at home as well my mum to take care of me unlike in hall....haha, though i'm learning to be more independent nowadays....

haha, just painted my nails a nice shade of purple...looks pretty nice....though i sound rather bimbotic here...oh wells.....one shld take pride in appearance right?

me and bro jeremy

blackie and weiji
nice lamp that was on our table....the candle light makes the place looks nicer
what the cafe looks like and that fridge there store alot of yummy cakes..


met up with the 18/03 ppl to go visit danielle's restaurant...haha, yes, i actualli have a friend who has opened a restaurant and managing it all by herself...hmm, it is located near NJ and i think the ambience is really nice inside though its just a small little cafe....the food there is yummy too and the desserts look really nice....haha, really enjoyed the dinner as it has certainly been a long long time since i've met up with them, from early dec till now....sometimes, really sad that all of us are so busy and rarely have the chance to meet up...oh well, but at least we had dinner together that night.

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Wednesday, February 01, 2006

tmr is the start of school again....after the long awaited chinese new year hols, it's like finally time to go back to school again...and i'm dreading every minute of school besides the fact that i'll be meeting my frens and hall mates again...everything sucks sia....and i can't seem to catch up with work so i guess this entire weekend shall be mugging at home le....really miss the feeling of going out on a weekend to basically walk ard but i guess this is one luxury that i can't afford right now.

chinese new year went past pretty smoothly, visited most of my relatives and was generally quite free this year as i'm not supposed to go visiting as my granddad hasn't passed away for one yr....so i guess my ang bao money is kinda little...and considering that i'm pretty broke nowadays, hoping that money will just fall on my feet.....

pretty confused lately, i am finding that it is getting harder for me to trust anyone....besides those frens whom i've met since sec sch or jc....i'm like discovering things about my friends that is making me feel as if i am in a nightmare...and that i'm questioning myself whether my thinking is too simple or maybe i just can't comprehend the complexity of the human mind...and i keep telling myself that maybe there's a reason behind everything....but it's kind of freaking me out to realise that certain issues that i have strong opinions about are going in a way that i can never imagine it to. After seeing so much, i'm beginning to lose faith in the things i believe strongly for and to lose trust in people. oh well, i guess no one will really understand what i'm talking about.

on a lighter note, met up with the 4/1 peepz tday, glad all of us cld make it even though i was rather unlucky in mahjong....hee, but it was fun sitting down chatting with one another esp since it has been so long since we all last met up....really enjoyed myself tday at weixin doggie's house...

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