Sunday, April 30, 2006

i'm bored, bored and bored. gosh, 2 more papers more to go....thurs seems so endlessly far away. that's the bad thing about having papers spreaded out....you get more time to study, while others are enjoying their after exams time.....sigh:( and the last 2 papers are killers too.....my memory space is completely going to be depleted.

sigh, and i have never hated maths as much as i did last fri....but oh wells, no more maths for me finally. to think that indian scholar next to me left after 1 hr into the paper while i was still struggling to write down equations of surfaces, and another indian guy who brought in 3 cans of qoo white grape and kept drinking it during the exams. makes me wonder if it would have helped if i drank a can too. i'm not being racist here but well, i just happpend to be sitting next to such geniuses.....sigh:(

i cant wait for the hols to come....s13, sat nite confirm ya? haha, and a trip with wendy and the hall ppl plus loads of shopping to be done.....oh mans....

i should be mugging for my next paper but kinda distracted tonite at home... sigh, i guess i'm kinda procrastinating though:( 2 papers down....cs was a flop and cm was all right, except one qn which i think i kind of chose wrongly...oh wells, what's done is done....i did my best anyway.

sigh, i'm just so sick of exams now even though i've only completed 2 papers....sigh, 1 more week to go...i want it to end as fast as possible, but yet, i really need more time to study.....bio and cep is going to take up my entire memory space....and cep is needless to say, a horrendous module. sigh, still can rmb the feeling of the mid sem test, though my results turned out to be better as expected but still, average. sigh, the feeling of being just average is indeed, not very good.

i want to do so manyt things after exams...haha, going to start on pilates classes to be more healthy....and swimming anyone? can't wait to go to the pool after 3 weeks of mugging.....

i seem to have headaches at the same time everynight nowadays. at least for the past 2 weeks. it's always seems to happens at 12 midnight....is this a sign of stress for the upcoming exams? sigh, i haven have such headaches since the a levels. and in addition to that, i seem to be having a toothache now....sigh, pls dun let it be my wisdom tooth.....12 more days to the end of exams and 5 papers to go...sigh:(

just read one of my good fren's blog....heex, was pretty amazed by how he felt towards friendship, it's really so true that it takes so much to maintain the same friendship esp since our lives are so different nowadays. gone are the days where we used to have the same hols, and so are the times we could go study together.....now, all of us have so much commitments. to this friend of mine, i'm sorry that i wasn't a better friend.....to listen to your problems when you had them....or even to initiate outings. haha, and i know that though busy with school is not really a good excuse, i've really been caught up in school work for the past 3 months. but i really do cherish our friendship alot, and those happy times we use to have. i believe that good friends don't have to always meet up, as i always do think of you now and then. and when we do meet up, i'm sure the familiar feeling that we use to have in the past will come back. and that's y we are such good friends and good brothers.

realise that i miss alot of my old frens alot....s13 girls since i've been mugging weiz everyday and also met sihui today....to shuang: initiate outings girl!!! haha, my exams end the latest......heex, sleepover or movie marathons? tag me ya?

heex, and to bro jeremy, i will initiate outings this hols....haha, no worries:)

*today was a happy day*

i think i did one of the most stupid thing in my life today. the journey home was definitely a sad one:( you know the feeling where you get when you are trying to compare yourself with one of your good friends. personally, it sucks.

sigh, it's abit strange how some things may appear to be so minor but yet, be able to hurt a person. i wished i knew what to do to make me feel better. i should just settle for cep and phy chem instead. sigh, and no one's at home again which makes me feel worse.

*it's really true that absence does makes the heart grow fonder* :)

it's late now but sad to say, my body clock is super screwed up....i feel tired but i don't feel like sleeping....sigh, i had enough of maths for the entire day.....if i were to see my lect notes once more, i think i will scream....but sad to say, i'm still on my journey towards trying to complete my helpsheet.

the day was spent in wdlands lib mugging with weiz....sigh, brings back memories of jc days where i used to go there often.....it's really quite conducive besides the fact that i have to drag myself there early in the morning.....sigh:( and the librarians there can be kinda unfriendly at times......i wished i could sleep the whole week away....haha, now that would be a receipe for disaster.

discovered that i actualli memorised the wrong day for my bio and cep exams.....it's actually on wed and thur instead of mon and tues....great, i'll be one of those ppl who end exams the latest....to think that the SMU peeps are already done with their exams....ooh, when will my turn come.....2 plus weeks more? sigh, these 2 wks is going to be hell.

12:35 AM

Monday, April 17, 2006

gosh, i saw this pic of this doggie maizie on my sis's friend blog....and i couldn't resist putting this pic here....doesn't it look absolutely adorable......sigh, i want a doggie like that too:)

1:18 AM

sometimes, talking things through is the best way to resolve any doubts and unhappiness. and i fully understood the meaning of this sentence today:) and if it means giving up something that's less important for a person that's more important, then i guess it's worth it.

i'm a happy girl:)

1:12 AM

Sunday, April 16, 2006

2 weeks and a few more days till the end of exams and 3 whole months of freedom from everything..... i'm so looking forward to the end of exams but yet, i'm still freaking out by the lack of time i seem to have before exam starts. well, i should be thankful i have one more week to mug before my first paper.

kinda like the feeling of being at home though.....at least i'm out of NUS....i must be pretty mad not to stay in school at this period of time....still remembered all the late nights spent in NUS on the benches mugging last sem......haha, and this sem, i couldn't bear to go through that once more and so, i went home. it might sound strange here but my house is kind of conducive as i have a big table in the living room which i use it for studying.....and the tv is seldom switched on as my family seldoms watch it....what's best is the variety of fruits that can be found in my fridge....totally yummy!

for a record, ate a total of 5 panadols today to stop cramps....sigh, what a bad time this is. imagine trying to study and yet feeling pain 24/7....sigh:( i hope it goes away tomorrow.....
and i've decided to go shopping right after my last paper ends......hee hee.....i need retail therapy.

busy thinking of what to do in the hols....a short holiday trip? ....cycling?...

1:26 AM

Saturday, April 15, 2006

pain is killing me....please go away soon.

10:25 PM

Thursday, April 13, 2006

i'm so unreasonable and wilful till i feel like smacking myself:(

10:05 PM

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

i have never dreaded an exam as much as i did today....programming prac. some ppl are just not meant to do well for this module...and i guess i'm part of this category. well, i did my best and so that's that. besides the upsetting fact of not putting my matric number which till now, i still find it amazing that i was so careless but oh well, there goes 5 marks. i should be thankful that my file was not missing amongst the huge amounts of files submitted.

was pretty upset today but what's over is over i guess. so, just have to work harder then:)

9:25 PM

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

i shldn't be here writing anything now as programming prac is less than 24 hours away, and i think i'm going to die in tomorrow's practical so well, i just hope i get a miracle. * please let me compile!!!!! *

sigh, deep beneath myself, i'm still a selfish person i guess....and i no longer believe in the kind of pure and innocent friendship i used to have with alot of my good friends......i mean, i still have those friends but now, i begin to see how oblivious some ppl can be, and it doesn't help that you thought they were your good friends.

:( am i that shallow?

11:10 PM

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

i'm beginning to feel like a caffeine addict, i can't seem to start my day without coffee these days. hmm, maybe this signifies the beginning of the exam period? still rmb adrain told me that he needed 10 cups a day.....i was so shocked then. well, there's this particular brand of coffee that i've been drinking which can seem to wake me up for a straight 7 hrs....haha, beginning to see it as a miracle drug....oh well, i'm just so bogged down by work and mugging. i hope this all ends soon.....but i don't want it to come as well. ironic isn't it?

9:46 AM

Sunday, April 02, 2006

counting down 3 more weeks to finals, can't believe that time has just flown by like that, it just seems like last week where i was slacking in the 7 months break and now, i'm facing a crisis...haha, which is finals. have a dreadful feeling that i will not do well, but oh wells, i've already put in the maximum amount of effort i could....so now, i guess its time to start the mugging engine once more and endure through this 1 month......after that, it will be fun fun and fun:)

oh, i had a great outing yest nite with my 4/1 clique...heex, glad everyone was present to celebrate hilda's early bday...haha, had loads of fun eating a yummy jap dinner and slacking around as well as throwing our faces at citylink's gelare! haha, it was totally embarrasing the way we gobbled down 4 waffles in like 5 mins? but at that point of time, i really felt really happy as these are the friends who have been with me since sec schools and there' s so much in common we have and really glad we still manage to keep in touch despite our busy schedules....haha...

here's a big shoutout to hilda: hey girl, it's kinda early but happy early bday...haha, and i guess i won';t be seeing u much until u come back...which is like in aug? haha, be sure to enjoy urself and buy us gifts....haha, too bad u will not be here during my bday.....:(

and to my dearest jeremy brother: happy happy 2oth as well, haha, sorry i didn't get u exactly at 12 cos i was busy doing stuff....hmm, but anyway, i miss u loads:) and mus promise to meet up in my hols ya? dun worry, i'll organise outings so that all of us can meet up but now.....hope u haf a gd day and may ur wishes come through ya?

1:27 AM