Thursday, March 29, 2007

no matter how hard i try, i will never be good enough.
good enough doesn't means best or number 1
it just means at least you reap what you sow.

taiwan, here i come. $270 air ticket, cheap cheap. can't wait for the yummy food:)

suddenly remembered my favourite scene in the movie love actually. what a romantic thing to do. simple and sweet:) too bad the girl is his best friend's wife:(

monday blues.

i want to. shop. catch a movie. be able to fall right back asleep after i've woken up without worrying about time. a blue sky beach holiday. to be back near the beach and the waves. watch vcds like there's no tomorrow.

haha, holidays are coming in a month's time. bleah, means exams are coming. gosh, someone just kick me. i'm still idling away.

talking about shopping, went with gwen and yeeling to the isetan sale. boy, it was damn crowded and we were nearly hyperventilating there. but i got my mphosis shots at a freaking cheap 25 bucks ( it was originally at 40) as well as a nice red top. at a cheap price too. hee. sales make me happy.

on the other hand, i think we're all becoming compulsive shopaholics. just like how some ppl cut their hair when they feel unhappy, window shopping makes me feel happy.

so much has happened in the past few days. and if i were to say i wasn't the least affected, i would be lying. and that i am grateful for the concern my friends have shown me in some way or another. oh well, there's always meaning to cliche phrases like 'sunshine after the storm'.

everything will turn out fine in the end. i guess. just trying to stay positive and not let what others say about me get to me.

as for the previous post, i have decided to remove it so as not to hurt anyone else who is not involved in the whole situation. i hoped it didn't caused any unhappiness.

and to my dearest:

i thank you for making me smile again
cos you know me better than i know myself.
for always telling me everything is going to be fine
and standing up for me.
you made feel that no matter how bad things may get,
i can always count on you at the end of a bad day.

thanx:)

birthday parties are supposed to be fun. went to weix and yeeling 21st bday party yest, it would have been more fun if something didn't happen. oh wells, i'm just unlucky and scattered brained i guess. felt abit guilty as me and baox only stayed a short while at weix bday party as we had to rush to another birthday party. but weix mum is certainly 1 gd cook. haa, and the vodka drink was super yummy vodka drink:)

many more upcoming birthday parties to attend. hee, it's also a gd time to meet up with old friends. oh, and i met my pri school class mate michelle teo at yeeling's 21st birthday party, can't believe was started chatting for quite some time. it is actually the first time i'm really talking to her since like pri 6? haha, we were busy discussing the rest of our pri sch class mates. haa, and it was quite hilarious.

i think i must be the 1st person to twist her neck while sleeping in the wrong position. either that or i have a huge ulcer in my throat as my neck really hurts for the past 2 days. sian, i can't even move my neck properly now.

on a brighter note, going for sushi buffet this thurs. yummy yummy:) i miss my appetite. ever since the mid terms started, i haven't been eating well for the past 2 weeks. sigh, it's unbelievable that i don't seem to feel hungry at all. oh wells, can finally satisfy my craving after my last midterm gem test this thur.

sometimes i really wonder what's the point of working hard where you know that nothing;s going to change at the end. perhaps there's some change, an insignificant one though. but i will stay positive, to fufill the resolutions i made at the start of the year.

anyway, i need to go shoe shopping desperately. my only pair of covered shoes that i wear to lab is worn out. talking about lab, i find lab reports absolutely repulsive. and yet everyweek, we all have to go through them as it every reports counts 5% to the final grade with 8 reports in all. it's anagolous to a slow death, bit by bit poisoning us.

do feelings change after perhaps a long time? or perhaps, is there any meaning to the word everlasting and forever? do people wake up one day and perhaps find that they don't feel the same way about certain things anymore?

CN midterms are finally over. yipeee

it just means that the end is near, finals are just around the corner. boo:(

1 more test to go next week and i can go satisfy my sushi craving soon.

got a hair cut today, but think i still look the same. well, i dislike radical changes.

yeeling and wei wei bday party this sat, yummy yummy food i hope and meeting up with frens.

mphosis sale last week, and i manages to grab 3 tops at around 10 bucks each. whee.